I have alot pics to blog...but i have no inspiration to post them...Damn lazy.. so my blog will be boring for awhile.....
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
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Thursday, August 27, 2009
The shining lily white T-shirt,A rainbow appears in the spraying water,The many winds playedIn the sky we gazed at blankly.The peace and quiet was a happiness only we shared.My obsession was deeper than anyone's, to my very heart.I'm still here now, gazing only at you.If I can never have this dream again, destroy it.I can't forget, I want to see you again.I gather up,Your shadow overlaid by a mirageI'll keep waiting even with the hands of time at a standstill.On the sleepless nights, and depressing mornings(I sing) your favorite moon songAt some...
Omg... One whole day keep singing Secondhand Serenade - Fall For you....Haih... Y keep on emo-ing d me.....Haih.......But seriously.... We should not meet each another anymore....We should not talk to each another anymore....Because you don't want to hurt him....You say that you want me to be happy... and don't want hurt me....It's making me unhappy and hurting me because knowing that we are not together....Love....? How are you showing me your love?....All i see is i keep doing a lot stuff....And you keep asking me not to....I hardly see any from...
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
I wish that you will stay only by my side...My one and only...But this is something unreasonable...You can't just live by making both happy and not hurting both...Choose one that is really important...I can't give you happiness...So stop caring for me...Because it's unfair to both...I'm being considerate...Respecting you and our boundaries...Even if you mend this... We will never be the same...I'm contented with your smile from far away...Your hurting me...Let me forget everything...Let me forget you...With every message you send... It leaves a...
Monday, August 24, 2009
Blame me...Throw hurtful words at me...Lose Yourself...Hurt Yourself...Cause Havoc...Make me Sad...Make me lonely...Make me scream...Make me cry...Do what you want...I Don't Wanna Care anymore...I Don't Wanna Remember i Ever love You...I Don't Wanna Remember i Ever Care For You...I Don't Wanna Remember i Ever Cherish you...I Don't Wanna Remember i Ever Miss you...I Don't wanna Remember i Ever Need you...I Don't Wanna Remember i ever truly love you dearly that i hurt myself so much......Love is something that someone would sacrifice anything to...
Nothing will be the same...Everything is over...You and me are just the past...There's nothing in the future...So stop breaking through my Wall....I'm nothing to you...I'm NOT important...I'm NOT something you need...You DON'T Miss me...You DON'T Need me...You DON'T love me...AT ALL...The more you care... The more I'm Hurt...
This words keep haunting me............It hurt me so badly.............Why do i have to keep it all to my self............Just to make u smile........ I have to endure it and hurt myself..........."He is better than you!!""I don't love you""I Really Hate you!!""Go Die!!!""At least now i know who truly loves me....."Sms-ing around me makes me feel unwanted..... I'm just too boring..... I'm not entertaining.... You don't want to be around me..... I cant make you laugh..... I'm bothering you.....At least i don't have to care bout this anymore.....Everything...
Last night was a pain....Why why why why why why why why why......Left here all alone to writhe and rot......I miss you so much..... But i have to resist.....I need you now so much..... But i have to let go.....If i ever had a wish.... I wish i was never born.....Now......The pain and agony is getting less.....Though i was so emo for the day.....Just need few more days to forget everything.....Getting rid of this feelings and memories.....At least.... i Don't have to endure this emotional pain anymore of being insecure.....This pain of agony and...
Please someone.. Tell me this is a nightmare....How much long must i shout in writhe and suffering.....Please Somebody.... Show me this is a nightmare......I scream repeatedly and my voice is ripped to shreds......On lonely nights, i muffle my voice and drown in agony......Please forgive me for my shuddering breaths......Please.... Please someone... Tell me all this is a night mare......How long must i scream, writhing in agony.....Please............. Somebody....... Please show me all this is a nightmare......
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain....Why must i feel this.... Feel so sad.... Feel so lonely.... Feel so hollow.... Feel all alone in this darkness....Both pain is so unbearable.... When being together and when not being together....I done this so that i wont come back....I close the door to my heart....I'm bearing this.... all alone....I dont have anyone precious and dear anymore....I can't love right this moment....I sacrifice my own needs... My own happiness.... My own feelings.......
We've run out of words we've run out of timeWe've run out of reasons really why we togetherWe both know it's over baby bottom lineIt's best we don't even talk at allDon't call me even if I should cross your mindHard enough I don't need to hear your voice on my messagesLet's just call it quits it's probably betterSo if I'm not returning your calls it's 'cause'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the doorI used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymoreI got the picture phone but baby your picture's goneCouldn't stand to see your smile...
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Found this at somebody's blogArgument I just had with my husband: Victor: We should have another baby. Me: TOTALLY! And then we can tattoo it. Victor: Um…what? Me: We could get it a tattoo of fang marks on its neck, like it’s been bitten by a vampire and is now a baby vampire. That would be awesome. Victor: That’s..totally inappropriate. Me: IT WOULD BE THE MOST BAD-ASS BABY EVER. Victor: No. Me: Dude, vampires are *huge* right now. Victor: What is wrong with you? Me: Oh! Or racing stripes. But babies are really slow so we’d also...
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
I heard the voice of the windI want to know the rest of the dreamNo one will tell meMy chest was smeared red...I want only you to understandWhy I must return...Far off in this endlessly continuing white earthMy voice that's crying out can no longer reach anyoneLike it's concealing this body's painsI'm embraced by kindness from the sky...The moon reflected in those eyes is prettyEven as the night is not finishedFar off in this endlessly continuing white earthMy voice that's crying out can no longer reach anyoneDeeply in this endlessly continuing...
Monday, August 17, 2009
I Should Have Given The Best Delinquent Award
Level 1:[x]Sleep in class[x]Talked in class[x]not seating at your own place in class[x]Scolded by a teacher[x]Litter the classroom[x]Did not do your homework at least 15 times[x]Submitted your homework late at least 10 times[x]Came late for school at least 10 times[x]brought/wore home clothes without school's permission[x]brought/wore jewellery to school[x]did not pay attention in class for at least 60% of the time[x]cried out "sian" or "wa lao wei" to the teacher[x]plucked a flower/ killed a plant in school[x]copied other people's homework in...
I regretted hearing..About my future..White flowers to buy, Yellow paper to buy, Red clothes to receive, White cloth to give..A work that is not meant to be, A work that is not to keep, A work that would not prosper..A work that involves maintenance.. Something large.. Weights a few ton.. That can carry few hundred people..A work that need to move around.. =(Red flower to buy, Chocolate to give, love to share..Red flower to buy, A candle light dinner, A ring to be given..Charity work.. Saving unfortunate people.. Spiritual World..I make my own...
Tolong Lah Bang~
Obvious anyone know what this means..When Festive season come.. Traffic Jam.. Happy Face~ Sad Face~ Empty Wallet..Our income increase.. The "Ma Tah" income increase too..Do you ever wonder why?Our crime rate increase during festive season..Its because the "Ma Tah" work diligently during that time..So.. Tolong lah Ba...
Sunday, August 16, 2009
i've been so sensitive lately..i kept thinking of things..i'm being jealous over little things..BUTIt makes me feel sad rather than jealous..i don't know whether it's jealousy, sadness or whatever..But it makes me feel so unwanted..Like i'm not enough..Like i'm boring..i really wish You be angry at me..And scold me..For being like this..Please don't be sad..Or shed tears..Just be angry.. And scold me..i just need that maybe..To know You do care eventhough we are friends..i'm really Sorry..The world would be better without me..i hate myself for...
Saturday, August 15, 2009
This as 100 Truths?
WHAT WAS YOUR:1. last beverage = Tiramisu Ice Blended2.last phone call = Howard Goh3.last text message = Eating Mocha Cake now.4.last song you listened to = Nothing gonna change my love for you - Westlife5. last time you cried = 2 weeks ago..HAVE YOU EVER:6. dated someone twice = Nope7. been cheated on = Yup8. kissed someone &; regretted it = For a while9. lost someone special = yup10. been depressed = Very 11. been drunk and threw up = Yup, regretted tooLIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Black13. Red14. WhiteTHIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)15....
I should be in jail..
Before you start, randomly tag the first 20 people that come to mind.If you'rer tagged fill one out. Now start. . .I have. . . (count up the number of things you have done from the list and then at the end add them all up)1. smoked.2. consumed alcohol.3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.5. kissed someone of the same sex.6. had sex.7. had someone in your room other than family.8. watched porn.9. bought porn.10. tried drugs.TOTAL: 51. taken painkillers.2. taken someone else's...
Friday, August 14, 2009
It's hard for me to bear this pain..U dont know how i feel..Yup i know i should give more space..I shouldn't hold you back from anything..But..Am i really that boring?Do i make you lonely?Do i make u so unhappy?Yup. i suck..Feel so sad that you don't know how i feel..Feel so lonely that I'm the one giving you a lot of love..Feel so hurt that you do things that hurt me..Even though u don"t know..Wish u happiness..Wishes you to learn how to read the mood..I have to bear all this.. Without letting you know..:')My heart is close to break......I'm so...
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Gackt - Last Song
Walked around aimlessly, wanderingMy faint breath, just showing white in the airThe meaninglessness of the seasons going byBrought on the tears, for no reason"I still love you..."The sadness that continues to fallChanges to pure white snowI kept looking to the skyIf now my wish reaches you,Before my body vanishesHold me tightly once more.We hurt each other so many timesUnable to understand one anotherEven then you were always kind,Engraved in the ring you sprung upon me,Our promise remains unfulfilled"Even now, I remember... "My memories getting...
Sunday, August 9, 2009
this rebound feeling is stupid..I should set myself straight..Am i really a guy?I should't fool around..I promise myself to be someone that is loved by anyone..I promise myself to be somebody that is outstanding..I want to be a gentleman..I want to be a real guy..I want to be a perfect lover..Now i'm just a rubbish..But i will rise up once again..That i would treat every girls as lady..Love is not a game..I hate myself..For being wea...
7 reasons not to mess with children.A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales The teacher saidit was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human becauseeven though it was a very large mammal its throat was very small. Thelittle girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale. Irritated, theteacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human; it wasphysically impossible. The little girl said, 'When I get to heaven Iwill ask Jonah'.The teacher asked, 'What if Jonah went to hell?' Thelittle girl replied, 'Then you ask him.'A...
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Outsider - Alone/Loner
is there anyone to heal my woundif i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worsei'm really scared of love and peoplei'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgottenis there anyone to heal my woundif i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worsei'm really scared of love and peoplei'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgottenalways a loner, i close the door to my heartbearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fooli close my eyes and cover my earsi lock myself in the gloomy darkness365 days, all year long, i wanderjack...
One afternoon a wealthy lawyer was riding in his limousine when he saw two men along the roadside eating grass.Disturbed, he ordered his driver to stop and he got out to investigate.He asked one man 'Why are you eating grass?''We don't have any money for food,' the poor man replied 'We have to eat grass.''Well, then, you can come with me to my house and I'll feed you', the lawyer said.'But sir, I have a wife and two children with me. They are over there, under that tree'.'Bring them along,' the lawyer replied.Turning to the other poor man he stated,...
1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?- Not really.. Above average2. Smart?- Yup.. Goot to chat3. Preferred age?- Younger.. If older at least 2~14. Preferred height?- Shorter than me5. How about sense of humor?- Love it.6. How about piercings?- I dont mind7. Accepts you for who you are?- YUP.8. Pink hair?- LOL.. So cool.9. Mushy or no?- Not too Mushy10. Thin or fat?- Mild and Raw11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?- Not stated12. Long hair or short hair?- Long13. Plastic or metal?- Meat14. Smells good?- Of course.15. Smoker?- I dont mind.....
Monday, August 3, 2009
I'm Selfish.. You are selfish.. Both of us are selfish..
It's no use pondering over the past.. Nvr been a thing between us.. U kept me by ur side because u dont want to hurt me..U wanted me because u were lonely.. And i gave you company..And u wanted me to be just by ur side.. I knew this all along.. But i've been greedy.. Ignoring the truth.. In the future.. u might keep thinking bout me.. and regretted...
