I have alot pics to blog...
but i have no inspiration to post them...
Damn lazy.. so my blog will be boring for awhile.. =D

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Got nothing to do...
Just some random blog...

28 Aug 09, 21:34
Mr.Anti EMO: if u wanna get over ur emo just kill ur self
28 Aug 09, 21:34
Mr.Anti EMO: emo emo emo suck
28 Aug 09, 21:33
Mr.Anti EMO: if u wanna get over ur emo just kill ur self

LOL... No life...
Get a life...

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I'm not really that emo....
Not that emo like last time....

I'm Happy....
Don't find me anymore....
Even if your sad....

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HeartBroken
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Emo
"Other People can't see the scars in our heart... So let us express our suffering physically...."

"Don't Hate us because we are different..."

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The shining lily white T-shirt,
A rainbow appears in the spraying water,
The many winds played
In the sky we gazed at blankly.

The peace and quiet was a happiness only we shared.

My obsession was deeper than anyone's, to my very heart.
I'm still here now, gazing only at you.
If I can never have this dream again, destroy it.
I can't forget, I want to see you again.

I gather up,
Your shadow overlaid by a mirage

I'll keep waiting even with the hands of time at a standstill.

On the sleepless nights, and depressing mornings
(I sing) your favorite moon song

At some point you were taken far from me, in body as well
Now only I'm left behind here
I believed nothing would change between us,
I fell in love once more, as I did back then...

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60% of Memories Forgotten....
Only left the hurtful times....

0% of feelings forgotten....

But i will keep on smiling.....
Even though it's painful...
Don't worry... I will be happy....

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Omg... One whole day keep singing Secondhand Serenade - Fall For you....
Haih... Y keep on emo-ing d me.....
Haih.......

But seriously.... We should not meet each another anymore....
We should not talk to each another anymore....
Because you don't want to hurt him....
You say that you want me to be happy... and don't want hurt me....
It's making me unhappy and hurting me because knowing that we are not together....
Love....? How are you showing me your love?....
All i see is i keep doing a lot stuff....
And you keep asking me not to....
I hardly see any from you....
Having this kind of relation isn't working out.....
When i'm getting cozy.... There's always interuption....
And i have to pretend nothing happen.....
Always during that time... I really wish you weren't with him.... So i can just be with you....

BUT..... IT'S OVER.....
It's time for me to let go.....
And time to say farewell.....

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Awesome!!! Playing Guitar now....
YIN PING!!! WHEN U TEACH ME PIANO??? XD

Today when to Jagoya eat.. It was great.. hahahax...
Drink a Lot.... Now dizzy.....

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Really wished u pick me over him..............
Y can't i just say this.......

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You can't give me the happiness that i really want...
Now you are just giving me happiness mixed with sadness...
It hurts...... Knowing you are not mine.... When you try to be with me.....
Cherish what you have now....

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I wish that you will stay only by my side...
My one and only...
But this is something unreasonable...
You can't just live by making both happy and not hurting both...
Choose one that is really important...
I can't give you happiness...
So stop caring for me...
Because it's unfair to both...
I'm being considerate...
Respecting you and our boundaries...
Even if you mend this... We will never be the same...
I'm contented with your smile from far away...
Your hurting me...
Let me forget everything...
Let me forget you...
With every message you send... It leaves a deep cut in my Heart...
Please.... Don't need me, miss me, care me, love me Anymore....

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Sorry People... My Blog Will be Emo Blog for some time..
Bear with me.. hahax.. =D

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Blame me...
Throw hurtful words at me...
Lose Yourself...
Hurt Yourself...
Cause Havoc...
Make me Sad...
Make me lonely...
Make me scream...
Make me cry...

Do what you want...
I Don't Wanna Care anymore...
I Don't Wanna Remember i Ever love You...
I Don't Wanna Remember i Ever Care For You...
I Don't Wanna Remember i Ever Cherish you...
I Don't Wanna Remember i Ever Miss you...
I Don't wanna Remember i Ever Need you...
I Don't Wanna Remember i ever truly love you dearly that i hurt myself so much......

Love is something that someone would sacrifice anything to see her smile...
Love is something so foolish...
Just Hate me... I'd be happy that you would...
Just Forget me... I'd Love it...
Wish you be happy without me ruining your life...
Isn't this best for us both...
Since i won't be here soon...

I'm a fool that ever believe there's Love...
A fool with an unrequited Love...
So this is Love that you show me...

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Nothing will be the same...
Everything is over...
You and me are just the past...
There's nothing in the future...
So stop breaking through my Wall....
I'm nothing to you...
I'm NOT important...
I'm NOT something you need...
You DON'T Miss me...
You DON'T Need me...
You DON'T love me...
AT ALL...
The more you care... The more I'm Hurt...

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This words keep haunting me............
It hurt me so badly.............
Why do i have to keep it all to my self............
Just to make u smile........ I have to endure it and hurt myself...........

"He is better than you!!"
"I don't love you"
"I Really Hate you!!"
"Go Die!!!"
"At least now i know who truly loves me....."

Sms-ing around me makes me feel unwanted..... I'm just too boring..... I'm not entertaining.... You don't want to be around me..... I cant make you laugh..... I'm bothering you.....

At least i don't have to care bout this anymore.....
Everything is over.....
I completely give up.....
I love you.... But i can't.....
Aisenai Aishitai.....

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Last night was a pain....
Why why why why why why why why why......
Left here all alone to writhe and rot......
I miss you so much..... But i have to resist.....
I need you now so much..... But i have to let go.....
If i ever had a wish.... I wish i was never born.....

Now......
The pain and agony is getting less.....
Though i was so emo for the day.....
Just need few more days to forget everything.....
Getting rid of this feelings and memories.....
At least.... i Don't have to endure this emotional pain anymore of being insecure.....
This pain of agony and sorrow... I can undergo.....
Adrenaline rushing... Numbing all the pain....
Another flow down my wrist....
Tears down my cheek....

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Please someone.. Tell me this is a nightmare....
How much long must i shout in writhe and suffering.....
Please Somebody.... Show me this is a nightmare......
I scream repeatedly and my voice is ripped to shreds......
On lonely nights, i muffle my voice and drown in agony......
Please forgive me for my shuddering breaths......
Please.... Please someone... Tell me all this is a night mare......
How long must i scream, writhing in agony.....
Please............. Somebody....... Please show me all this is a nightmare......

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Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain Pain....
Why must i feel this.... Feel so sad.... Feel so lonely.... Feel so hollow.... Feel all alone in this darkness....
Both pain is so unbearable.... When being together and when not being together....
I done this so that i wont come back....
I close the door to my heart....
I'm bearing this.... all alone....
I dont have anyone precious and dear anymore....
I can't love right this moment....
I sacrifice my own needs... My own happiness.... My own feelings.... Just for your happiness....
Why do i regret it so much now.... i lost someone precious and dear.... feel like dying..
But i don't intend to change anything....
Even tough i really want to....
But it can never be undone....

The red colour looks so beautiful now....
Flowing down my wrist....

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It's so torturing to resist temptation and chance...
At last... i broke every chances that i can ever be with you...
It hurts so bad... But as long u r happy...

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We've run out of words we've run out of time
We've run out of reasons really why we together
We both know it's over baby bottom line
It's best we don't even talk at all

Don't call me even if I should cross your mind
Hard enough I don't need to hear your voice on my messages
Let's just call it quits it's probably better
So if I'm not returning your calls it's 'cause

'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone but baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed

'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

I still wake up every morning quarter to ten
I still eat my cereal right at the kitchen table
I can't even remember how long it's been
No trouble stayin' occupied

Oh I ask about you whenever I come around
I do what I can not to put my business in the streets
Last thing I need's another episode
Keep conversation short and sweet because

'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed

'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause baby it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

You know that it's over when the burnin'
And the yearnin' inside your heart ain't there anymore
And you know that you're through when she don't do to you
And move you like the way she moved ya before

And you wanna pull her close
But your heart has froze
You kiss her but her eyes don't close
Then she goes out of your heart forever
And it hurts you but you know that it's better

Girl you know it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over
'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

You hurt me so bad... It makes so sad...
That's why no matter what you do now... It wont make me happy...
The words I'm Happy is just a lie...
Because of that day... Baby... The things i do... It will never be better...
I suck so bad... I'm worst... I can't make you happy...
When ever I'm with my friends... I become sane...
Baby... You can't mend my heart... You crush it into dust...
I miss you so much... I need you so much...
I really hope that you will pull me back... But please don't...
You want to be happy... In the end you make my Heart so painful... Your selfish...
Yes i will be happy too... But at home... It hurts...
I can't take this anymore...
I know you don't love me at all...
That's why I Can't continue being with you...
That's why I'm sorry...
I'm leaving with a smile...
=D

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The doctor looks like he is a sadist..

WOOTS.. GREAT FOOD.. I WANNA EAT AGAIN!!!

SUKI.. THE Birthday Boy.. on tht Day
Jamie.. The only girl in the group..
Posing time~



Epic!!
My drink.. Super delicious.. Chinese tea

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Found this at somebody's blog

Argument I just had with my husband:

Victor: We should have another baby.

Me: TOTALLY! And then we can tattoo it.

Victor: Um…what?

Me: We could get it a tattoo of fang marks on its neck, like it’s been bitten by a vampire and is now a baby vampire. That would be awesome.

Victor: That’s..totally inappropriate.

Me: IT WOULD BE THE MOST BAD-ASS BABY EVER.

Victor: No.

Me: Dude, vampires are *huge* right now.

Victor: What is wrong with you?

Me: Oh! Or racing stripes. But babies are really slow so we’d also have to tattoo “THESE ARE IRONIC RACING STRIPES” on him so people wouldn’t make fun of him.

Victor: That’s completely ridiculous. How about if we just tattoo a giant turtle’s shell across the baby’s entire back?

Me: What?! That’s ridiculous. Why a turtle shell?

Victor: Because babies are slow. And they crawl just like turtles. And people love turtles.

Me: People run over turtles. With their cars.

Victor: Not in your damn house they don’t. Were you planning on leaving our baby out in the middle of the street?!

Me: Well not the one tattooed as a turtle, obviously.

Victor: ?

Me: Actually, probably not the one tattooed as a vampire either because then people would assume it was immortal and they wouldn’t bother to swerve.

Victor: Wow.

Me: Yeah.

Victor: You know, we probably shouldn’t have another baby.

Me: No. Probably not.

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I heard the voice of the wind
I want to know the rest of the dream
No one will tell me
My chest was smeared red...

I want only you to understand
Why I must return...

Far off in this endlessly continuing white earth
My voice that's crying out can no longer reach anyone

Like it's concealing this body's pains
I'm embraced by kindness from the sky...

The moon reflected in those eyes is pretty
Even as the night is not finished

Far off in this endlessly continuing white earth
My voice that's crying out can no longer reach anyone

Deeply in this endlessly continuing white earth
I'm still falling and cannot be healed by anyone

Like being enveloped in that small body
I'm embraced by the wagtail's kindness...

I lie with the kindness from the sky
And am embraced by the earth's warmth...

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I Should Have Given The Best Delinquent Award

Level 1:

[x]Sleep in class
[x]Talked in class
[x]not seating at your own place in class
[x]Scolded by a teacher
[x]Litter the classroom
[x]Did not do your homework at least 15 times
[x]Submitted your homework late at least 10 times
[x]Came late for school at least 10 times
[x]brought/wore home clothes without school's permission
[x]brought/wore jewellery to school
[x]did not pay attention in class for at least 60% of the time
[x]cried out "sian" or "wa lao wei" to the teacher
[x]plucked a flower/ killed a plant in school
[x]copied other people's homework in desperation
[x]played a trick on your classmates/teacher

Total so far: 15

Level 2:

[x]sent for detention class
[x]late in class
[x]not wearing your school uniform (if you have) properly
[x]shouted at the top of your voice during lesson time
[x]scolding vulgarities in class
[x]spotted hairstyle deemed unacceptable by the school
[x]used a school facility without school's permission
[x]played soccer/basketball or any other sports in classroom
[x]singing loudly during lesson
[x]walking around the class aimlessly during lesson time
[x]did not greet the teacher properly
[x]went to the toilet during lesson time without permission
[x]played a trick on the teacher during april fools
[x]used the teacher's table as a rubbish dump
[x]made yourself a nuisance to the teacher

Total so far: 30

Level 3:

[x]was asked to stay back after school/ break time
[x]made a fool out of morning assembly
[x]wasted the school's toilet paper
[x]sabotaged someone
[x]irritated someone

Total so far: 35

Level 4:

[x]forged your parent's signature
[x]forged a classmate's signature
[x]forged a teacher's signature
[x]made rude remarks to the school cleaners in front of them
[x]flew a paper aeroplane down from the school from at least the fifth storey

Total so far: 40

Level 5:

[x]fiddling with your handphone during lesson time
[x]played with your PSP in school(actually not mine, it's mun hong's)
[x]using school computer to play games without a teacher's permission
[x]listened to an MP3 player in school
[ ]messed with the teacher's pigeon hole(WTF??)

Total so far: 44

Level 6:

[x]vandalising with school property
[x]tried to defame your school in public
[x]used the internet to scold teachers
[x]fought with someone in school
[x]shoplifted in school

Total so far: 49

Level 7:

[x]cheated in a class test
[x]cheated in a school examination
[ ]cheated for your PSLE/ GCE 'O' or 'A' Level Examination
[x]Lied to your teacher
[x]played truancy for hall assemblies/ specific lessons

Total so far: 53

Level 8:

[ ]took drugs in school
[ ]smoked in school
[x]set fire to something in the school
[x]locked the teacher out of the classroom
[x]played truancy just after coming to school just to take attendance

Total so far: 56

Level 9:

[ ]refused to pay school fees
[ ]cheated the school money
[x]stole things which belonged to the school
[x]bullied someone in school
[x]pranked called your school

Total so far: 59

Level 10:

[x]raised your voice/shouted against a student leader
[x]raised your voice/shouted against a teacher
[x]raised your voice/shouted against your discipline master/mistress
[x]raised your voice/shouted against your vice-principal
[x]raised your voice/shouted against your principal

Total so far: 64

Level 11:

[x]brought weapons to the school (penknife?)
[x]brought real firearms to the school
[ ]brought a real bomb to the school
[x]fired a real weapon in the school with the motive to frighten/kill
[ ]dressed up as a terrorist to school

Grand total: 67

Ranks:
If you are between 0-15 -------------{I am a good student}
If you are between 16-20------------{I am a good student but with occasional trouble}
If you are between 21-30------------{I am an average student}
If you are between 31-40------------{I am a bad student}
If you are between 41-50------------{I am a very bad student}
If you are between 51-60------------{I should have been caned by the discipline master}
If you are between 61-65------------{I should have been expelled from school}
If you are between 66-75------------{I should have been sent to a reformatory centre}

from the rank you have , post that rank as the title

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I regretted hearing..
About my future..

White flowers to buy, Yellow paper to buy, Red clothes to receive, White cloth to give..

A work that is not meant to be, A work that is not to keep, A work that would not prosper..

A work that involves maintenance.. Something large.. Weights a few ton.. That can carry few hundred people..

A work that need to move around.. =(

Red flower to buy, Chocolate to give, love to share..

Red flower to buy, A candle light dinner, A ring to be given..

Charity work.. Saving unfortunate people.. Spiritual World..

I make my own destiny.. I create my own path.. I am the pilot of my life.. Prediction may change.. I have uncountable path to walk..

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Tolong Lah Bang~

Obvious anyone know what this means..

When Festive season come.. Traffic Jam.. Happy Face~ Sad Face~ Empty Wallet..
Our income increase.. The "Ma Tah" income increase too..

Do you ever wonder why?
Our crime rate increase during festive season..

Its because the "Ma Tah" work diligently during that time..

So.. Tolong lah Bang~

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i've been so sensitive lately..
i kept thinking of things..
i'm being jealous over little things..
BUT
It makes me feel sad rather than jealous..
i don't know whether it's jealousy, sadness or whatever..
But it makes me feel so unwanted..
Like i'm not enough..
Like i'm boring..

i really wish You be angry at me..
And scold me..
For being like this..
Please don't be sad..
Or shed tears..
Just be angry.. And scold me..
i just need that maybe..
To know You do care eventhough we are friends..

i'm really Sorry..
The world would be better without me..
i hate myself for being like this..
my heart is breaking apart slowly..
That's why i'm very sensitive now..

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This as 100 Truths?

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = Tiramisu Ice Blended
2.last phone call = Howard Goh
3.last text message = Eating Mocha Cake now.
4.last song you listened to = Nothing gonna change my love for you - Westlife
5. last time you cried = 2 weeks ago..

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = Nope
7. been cheated on = Yup
8. kissed someone &; regretted it = For a while
9. lost someone special = yup
10. been depressed = Very
11. been drunk and threw up = Yup, regretted too

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Black
13. Red
14. White

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = Yup
16. Fallen out of love = Yup
17. Laughed until you cried = Nope
18. Met someone who changed you = Yup
19. Found out who your true friends were = I'm still with them.. But they never ask me out except today.. T_T
20. Found out someone was talking about you =Yup

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = wat FB?

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = A Lot

24. Do you have any pets = Nope..

25. Do you want to change your name = Nope.. I love my name

26. What did you do for your last birthday = Went out with friends
27. What time did you wake up today = 9Am OMG
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = Went out to get money

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Love?
30. Last time you saw your Mother = Few minutes.. Or is Hour?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Better Life
32. What are you listening to right now = Nothing Gonna Change my Love for you - WestLife
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = Nope
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = Getting late reply
35. Most visited webpage = Blog, youtube, google, onemanga, tokyotosho
36. Where do you want to be right now = Beside somebody.. To bully.. XD
37. Nicknames = Which one? Damn Alot
38. Relationship Status = Single..
39. Zodiac sign = Aries
40.Male or female? = You asking me i want wat sex? or Wat sex am i?
41. Elementary? = Forgot
42. Middle School = Sri Garden
44. Hair color = Dark Brown
45. Long or short = Medium
46. Height = 180cm
47. Do you have a crush on so = on who?
48: What do you like about yourself = Everything
49: Piercings = No Where
50: Tattoos = Nope
51.Righty or lefty= Right.. Wat's Right?
FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = No wor.. My arm?
53. First piercing = Nope
54. First best friend = Errrr.. Forgot
55. First kiss = Got Stolen..
56. First vacation = Thailand?
58. First crush = That sucks bad

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = Air
60. Drinking = Air(BM)
61. I'm about to = Nudge Someone
62. Listening to = You ask three Freaking Times!!
63. Waiting for = Someone Perfect

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = YUP
65. Get Married?= Of course
66. Career? = Doctor or Pyschologist

WHICH IS BETTER

67. Lips or eyes = Lips
68. Hugs or kisses = Kisses
69. Shorter or taller= Shorther than me
70. Older or Younger = I dont mind
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Dunno
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Dunno
73. Sensitive or loud = Dunno
74. Hook-up or relationship = Dunno
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Dunno

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = No
77. Drank hard liquor = Yup
78. Lost glasses/contacts = Shit.. where the hell i place them??
79. Sex on first date = Wow.. i not so pro
80. Broken someone's heart = Kinda
81. Had your own heart broken = Of course
82. Been arrested = No
83. Turned someone down = I'm So cold
84. Cried when someone died = Yup
85. Fallen for a friend? = HUH? of course gua?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = Yup
87. Miracles = Yup
88. Love at first sight = think so
89. Heaven = WTF?
90. Santa Claus = I tot he died
91. Kiss on the first date = Want to
92. Angels = Sure, All girls are angels

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf?= No...
95. Did you sing today? = Alot.
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = No..
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = Std 6
98. Are you afraid of falling in love with somebody else? = Currently no..
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = What?

Tagging....
Fuck it..

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Heard this at Kaki corner.. Love this so much..
When i heard this..
Jay Chou - Ai Wo Bie Zhou
I kept thinking about you..
Ronan Keating - When you say nothing at all
Miss you so much..

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I should be in jail..

Before you start, randomly tag the first 20 people that come to mind.If you'rer tagged fill one out. Now start. . .

I have. . . (count up the number of things you have done from the list and then at the end add them all up)

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.
TOTAL: 5

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone would die.
10. seen someone die.
TOTAL: 9

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. been to rehab
6. dyed your hair.
7. received a ticket.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar
TOTAL: 8

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL: 6

1. dressed gothic.
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
TOTAL: 6

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
TOTAL: 5

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
TOTAL: 6

1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.
TOTAL: 8

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drank and driven.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
TOTAL: 10

Grand Total: 63

Drum roll. . . !

If you have less than 10, write "I'm a goody-goody"
If you have more than 10, write "I'm still a goody goody"
If you have more than 20, write "I'm average"
If you have more than 30, write "I'm a bad kid"
If you have more than 40, write "I'm a very bad influence"
If you have more than 50, write "I'm a horrible person"
If you have more than 60, write "I should be in jail"

Going to tag.. FOR?
1. Suki(Happy Belated birthday)
2. Howard (huh?)
3. Gramps (Completely Missing)
4. Yin Ping (lost contact for awhile)
5. Wa Yee (just for fun)
6. Camille (revenge for tagging me)

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It's hard for me to bear this pain..
U dont know how i feel..

Yup i know i should give more space..
I shouldn't hold you back from anything..

But..
Am i really that boring?
Do i make you lonely?
Do i make u so unhappy?

Yup. i suck..
Feel so sad that you don't know how i feel..
Feel so lonely that I'm the one giving you a lot of love..
Feel so hurt that you do things that hurt me..
Even though u don"t know..

Wish u happiness..
Wishes you to learn how to read the mood..
I have to bear all this.. Without letting you know..
:')

My heart is close to break......
I'm so weak......

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Gackt - Last Song

Walked around aimlessly, wandering
My faint breath, just showing white in the air
The meaninglessness of the seasons going by
Brought on the tears, for no reason
"I still love you..."

The sadness that continues to fall
Changes to pure white snow
I kept looking to the sky
If now my wish reaches you,
Before my body vanishes
Hold me tightly once more.

We hurt each other so many times
Unable to understand one another
Even then you were always kind,
Engraved in the ring you sprung upon me,
Our promise remains unfulfilled
"Even now, I remember... "

My memories getting farther away from me,
Always so bright, I wanted to stay with you longer.
We can never see each other again but,
You always were there for me,
I pray you never change...

I can't rid myself of the final tears you showed me

Even if I disappear with this white snow
I want to bloom in your heart forever

Never forget the warmth,
Of when we were nestled close, holding one another
Even when you're loving someone else
I'll never let go of your voice as I heard it the last time.
I want to fall into a deep sleep.

The sadness that continues to fall
Changes to pure white snow
I kept looking to the sky
If now my wish reaches you,
Before my body vanishes
Hold me tight once more.

'Hold me tight once more...'

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this rebound feeling is stupid..
I should set myself straight..
Am i really a guy?
I should't fool around..
I promise myself to be someone that is loved by anyone..
I promise myself to be somebody that is outstanding..
I want to be a gentleman..
I want to be a real guy..
I want to be a perfect lover..

Now i'm just a rubbish..
But i will rise up once again..
That i would treat every girls as lady..
Love is not a game..
I hate myself..
For being weak..

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7 reasons not to mess with children.

A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales The teacher said
it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because
even though it was a very large mammal its throat was very small. The
little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale. Irritated, the
teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human; it was
physically impossible. The little girl said, 'When I get to heaven I
will ask Jonah'.The teacher asked, 'What if Jonah went to hell?' The
little girl replied, 'Then you ask him.'


A Kindergarten teacher was observing her classroom of children while
they were drawing.. She would occasionally walk around to see each
child's work. As she got to one little girl who was working
diligently, she asked what the drawing was. The girl replied, 'I'm
drawing God.' The teacher paused and said, 'But no one knows what God
looks like.' Without missing a beat, or looking up from her drawing,
the girl replied, 'They will in a minute.'


A Sunday school teacher was discussing the Ten Commandments with her
five and six year olds. After explaining the commandment to 'honor'
thy Father and thy Mother, she asked, 'Is there a commandment that
teaches us how to treat our brothers and sisters?' Without missing a
beat one little boy (the oldest of a family) answered, 'Thou shall not
kill.'


One day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the
dishes at the kitchen sink.. She suddenly noticed that her mother had
several strands of white hair sticking out in contrast on her brunette
head. She looked at her mother and inquisitively asked, 'Why are some
of your hairs white, Mom? 'Her mother replied, 'Well, every time that
you do something wrong and make me cry or unhappy, one of my hairs
turns white.' The little girl thought about this revelation for a
while and then said, 'Momma, how come ALL of grandma's hairs are
white?'


The children had all been photographed, and the teacher was trying to
persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture. 'Just think how
nice it will be to look at it when you are all grown up and say,
'There's Jennifer, she's a lawyer,' or 'That's Michael, He's a doctor.
A small voice at the back of the room rang out, 'And there's the
teacher, she's dead.'


A teacher was giving a lesson on the circulation of the blood. Trying
to make the matter clearer, she said, 'Now, class, if I stood on my
head, the blood, as you know, would run into it, and I would turn red
in the face' 'Yes,' the class said. 'Then why is it that while I am
standing upright in the ordinary position the blood doesn't run into
my feet?' A little fellow shouted, 'Cause your feet ain't empty.'


The children were lined up in the cafeteria of a Catholic elementary
school for lunch. At the head of the table was a large pile of apples.
The nun made a note, and posted on the apple tray: 'Take only ONE .
God is watching.' Moving further along the lunch line, at the other
end of the table was a large pile of chocolate chip cookies. A child
had written a note, 'Take all you want. God is watching the apples.'

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Outsider - Alone/Loner

is there anyone to heal my wound
if i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
i'm really scared of love and people
i'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

is there anyone to heal my wound
if i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
i'm really scared of love and people
i'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

365 days, all year long, i wander
jack sparrow holds the rudder, chasing my spirit
the raging hurricane, tightening my belt
a rapper who forfeited his orientation and lost his way
i fight again with the other me who's hiding inside me

when she left, she told me
'even when you're next to me, it's like you're not there"
a blade-like love that brushes off when you touch it
it was a cold love where my heart froze over

yeah, living for one minute, one second is not living
everyday, i fear every day
m'aidez! someone, pull me out

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

when i faced our farewell that came without warning,
afraid that i'd be alone again, i ignored it
the past times that i yearn for even in my dreams
hoping for those times to return to me, with an earnest heart
i prayed every night

the arrow of memories that pulled the bowstring and left my hand
it flies endlessly towards the far target
i'm asking you to come back to me, to hold onto my hand
no matter how many times i call you, though i endlessly shout for you
there's no response from you

in my memories, no matter how much i struggle to erase your existence
every night, in my dreams,
she appears, wiping away my falling tears
what should i do? say that everything is ok?
lie to myself? i can't take this anymore!

when it hurts, i hurt too. when it's sad, i'm sad too
my frozen heart keeps accusing me
really, it's the end. really, i'm okay.
the tears that i've held in keeps pouring down on me

is there anyone to heal my wound
if i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
i'm really scared of love and people
i'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

is there anyone to heal my wound
if i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
i'm really scared of love and people
i'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

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One afternoon a wealthy lawyer was riding in his limousine when he saw two men along the roadside eating grass.

Disturbed, he ordered his driver to stop and he got out to investigate.


He asked one man 'Why are you eating grass?'


'We don't have any money for food,' the poor man replied 'We have to eat grass.'


'Well, then, you can come with me to my house and I'll feed you', the lawyer said.


'But sir, I have a wife and two children with me. They are over there, under that tree'.


'Bring them along,' the lawyer replied.


Turning to the other poor man he stated, 'You come with us also.'


The second man, in a pitiful voice then said, 'But sir, I also have a wife and SIX children with me!'


'Bring them all, as well,' the lawyer answered.


They all entered the car, which was no easy task, even for a car as large as the limousine was.


Once underway, one of the poor fellows turned to the lawyer and said, 'Sir, you are too kind. Thank you for taking all of us with you.'


The lawyer replied, 'Glad to do it. You'll really love my place; the grass is almost 1 metre high!'

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1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
- Not really.. Above average

2. Smart?
- Yup.. Goot to chat

3. Preferred age?
- Younger.. If older at least 2~1

4. Preferred height?
- Shorter than me

5. How about sense of humor?
- Love it.

6. How about piercings?
- I dont mind

7. Accepts you for who you are?
- YUP.

8. Pink hair?
- LOL.. So cool.

9. Mushy or no?
- Not too Mushy

10. Thin or fat?
- Mild and Raw

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
- Not stated

12. Long hair or short hair?
- Long

13. Plastic or metal?
- Meat

14. Smells good?
- Of course.

15. Smoker?
- I dont mind.. as long dont smoke in front of me

16. Drinker?
- Sure.. I'm a drinker too

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
- The closer the better

18. feminine?
- Feminine on the inside, abit boyish

19. Plays piano?
- Sure.. I would learn too.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
- Cool, we can form a band

21. Plays violin?
- Love it too.

22. Sings very well?
- Of course
23. Vain?
- Not too much..

24. With glasses?
- I dont mind.. Girl with glasses are cute

25. With braces?
- Not too ugly braces

26. Shy type?
- Yup. Fun to tease.. =D

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
- 50 - 50

28. Active or passive?
- Active.. Passive are too boring..

29. Tight or bomb?
- Hot and sexy

30. Singer or dancer?
- Both

31. Stunner?
- @@

32. Hiphop?
- I dont mind.

33. Earrings?
- Wouldn't bother me at all

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-un

til-you-drop?
- WTF is this

35. Dimples?!
- Much cuter.. XD

36. Bookworm?
- Can share interests with me

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
- Anything romantic is ok too

38. Playful?
- To me only.. XD

39. Flirt?
- Only towards me..

40. Poem writer?
- I rather do that.

41. Serious?
- Not too serious..

42. Campus crush?
- Wat campus?

43. Painter?
- I love to draw.. She can paint it.

44. Religious?
- Not Extreme

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
- Mild.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
- I dont mind.. But moderate

47. Speaks 20 languages?
- Ask her to teach me..

48. Loyal or faithful?
- Both!!

49. good kisser?
- Let me teach her..

50. loves children?
- Absolutely

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I'm Selfish.. You are selfish.. Both of us are selfish..

It's no use pondering over the past.. Nvr been a thing between us.. U kept me by ur side because u dont want to hurt me..
U wanted me because u were lonely.. And i gave you company..
And u wanted me to be just by ur side.. I knew this all along.. But i've been greedy.. Ignoring the truth.. In the future.. u might keep thinking bout me.. and regretted about this.. OR
U love me because u were made to think. And i took advantage of it..
On the other hand.. u would just remember me as a caring friend.. and live happily..

Should have left me when the feelings was so little.. But i had to leave you with this heavy feeling..
U stay by my side because you dont want to hurt me.. But you deepen it
I will just remember you as someone that i was attracted to on the 1st day of college.. You came in late.. And U sat behind me.. The urge to know u.. and talk to you.. That's all..
I did love you.. But you Did not..
The memories i had.. I leave it behind.. And i will keep looking forward..

I hate you so much..

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