Saturday, August 15, 2009

I should be in jail..

Before you start, randomly tag the first 20 people that come to mind.If you'rer tagged fill one out. Now start. . .

I have. . . (count up the number of things you have done from the list and then at the end add them all up)

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.
TOTAL: 5

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone would die.
10. seen someone die.
TOTAL: 9

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. been to rehab
6. dyed your hair.
7. received a ticket.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar
TOTAL: 8

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL: 6

1. dressed gothic.
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
TOTAL: 6

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
TOTAL: 5

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
TOTAL: 6

1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.
TOTAL: 8

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drank and driven.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
TOTAL: 10

Grand Total: 63

Drum roll. . . !

If you have less than 10, write "I'm a goody-goody"
If you have more than 10, write "I'm still a goody goody"
If you have more than 20, write "I'm average"
If you have more than 30, write "I'm a bad kid"
If you have more than 40, write "I'm a very bad influence"
If you have more than 50, write "I'm a horrible person"
If you have more than 60, write "I should be in jail"

Going to tag.. FOR?
1. Suki(Happy Belated birthday)
2. Howard (huh?)
3. Gramps (Completely Missing)
4. Yin Ping (lost contact for awhile)
5. Wa Yee (just for fun)
6. Camille (revenge for tagging me)

Friday, August 14, 2009

It's hard for me to bear this pain..
U dont know how i feel..

Yup i know i should give more space..
I shouldn't hold you back from anything..

But..
Am i really that boring?
Do i make you lonely?
Do i make u so unhappy?

Yup. i suck..
Feel so sad that you don't know how i feel..
Feel so lonely that I'm the one giving you a lot of love..
Feel so hurt that you do things that hurt me..
Even though u don"t know..

Wish u happiness..
Wishes you to learn how to read the mood..
I have to bear all this.. Without letting you know..
:')

My heart is close to break......
I'm so weak......

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Gackt - Last Song

Walked around aimlessly, wandering
My faint breath, just showing white in the air
The meaninglessness of the seasons going by
Brought on the tears, for no reason
"I still love you..."

The sadness that continues to fall
Changes to pure white snow
I kept looking to the sky
If now my wish reaches you,
Before my body vanishes
Hold me tightly once more.

We hurt each other so many times
Unable to understand one another
Even then you were always kind,
Engraved in the ring you sprung upon me,
Our promise remains unfulfilled
"Even now, I remember... "

My memories getting farther away from me,
Always so bright, I wanted to stay with you longer.
We can never see each other again but,
You always were there for me,
I pray you never change...

I can't rid myself of the final tears you showed me

Even if I disappear with this white snow
I want to bloom in your heart forever

Never forget the warmth,
Of when we were nestled close, holding one another
Even when you're loving someone else
I'll never let go of your voice as I heard it the last time.
I want to fall into a deep sleep.

The sadness that continues to fall
Changes to pure white snow
I kept looking to the sky
If now my wish reaches you,
Before my body vanishes
Hold me tight once more.

'Hold me tight once more...'












Sunday, August 9, 2009

this rebound feeling is stupid..
I should set myself straight..
Am i really a guy?
I should't fool around..
I promise myself to be someone that is loved by anyone..
I promise myself to be somebody that is outstanding..
I want to be a gentleman..
I want to be a real guy..
I want to be a perfect lover..

Now i'm just a rubbish..
But i will rise up once again..
That i would treat every girls as lady..
Love is not a game..
I hate myself..
For being weak..

7 reasons not to mess with children.

A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales The teacher said
it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because
even though it was a very large mammal its throat was very small. The
little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale. Irritated, the
teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human; it was
physically impossible. The little girl said, 'When I get to heaven I
will ask Jonah'.The teacher asked, 'What if Jonah went to hell?' The
little girl replied, 'Then you ask him.'


A Kindergarten teacher was observing her classroom of children while
they were drawing.. She would occasionally walk around to see each
child's work. As she got to one little girl who was working
diligently, she asked what the drawing was. The girl replied, 'I'm
drawing God.' The teacher paused and said, 'But no one knows what God
looks like.' Without missing a beat, or looking up from her drawing,
the girl replied, 'They will in a minute.'


A Sunday school teacher was discussing the Ten Commandments with her
five and six year olds. After explaining the commandment to 'honor'
thy Father and thy Mother, she asked, 'Is there a commandment that
teaches us how to treat our brothers and sisters?' Without missing a
beat one little boy (the oldest of a family) answered, 'Thou shall not
kill.'


One day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the
dishes at the kitchen sink.. She suddenly noticed that her mother had
several strands of white hair sticking out in contrast on her brunette
head. She looked at her mother and inquisitively asked, 'Why are some
of your hairs white, Mom? 'Her mother replied, 'Well, every time that
you do something wrong and make me cry or unhappy, one of my hairs
turns white.' The little girl thought about this revelation for a
while and then said, 'Momma, how come ALL of grandma's hairs are
white?'


The children had all been photographed, and the teacher was trying to
persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture. 'Just think how
nice it will be to look at it when you are all grown up and say,
'There's Jennifer, she's a lawyer,' or 'That's Michael, He's a doctor.
A small voice at the back of the room rang out, 'And there's the
teacher, she's dead.'


A teacher was giving a lesson on the circulation of the blood. Trying
to make the matter clearer, she said, 'Now, class, if I stood on my
head, the blood, as you know, would run into it, and I would turn red
in the face' 'Yes,' the class said. 'Then why is it that while I am
standing upright in the ordinary position the blood doesn't run into
my feet?' A little fellow shouted, 'Cause your feet ain't empty.'


The children were lined up in the cafeteria of a Catholic elementary
school for lunch. At the head of the table was a large pile of apples.
The nun made a note, and posted on the apple tray: 'Take only ONE .
God is watching.' Moving further along the lunch line, at the other
end of the table was a large pile of chocolate chip cookies. A child
had written a note, 'Take all you want. God is watching the apples.'

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Outsider - Alone/Loner

is there anyone to heal my wound
if i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
i'm really scared of love and people
i'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

is there anyone to heal my wound
if i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
i'm really scared of love and people
i'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

365 days, all year long, i wander
jack sparrow holds the rudder, chasing my spirit
the raging hurricane, tightening my belt
a rapper who forfeited his orientation and lost his way
i fight again with the other me who's hiding inside me

when she left, she told me
'even when you're next to me, it's like you're not there"
a blade-like love that brushes off when you touch it
it was a cold love where my heart froze over

yeah, living for one minute, one second is not living
everyday, i fear every day
m'aidez! someone, pull me out

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

when i faced our farewell that came without warning,
afraid that i'd be alone again, i ignored it
the past times that i yearn for even in my dreams
hoping for those times to return to me, with an earnest heart
i prayed every night

the arrow of memories that pulled the bowstring and left my hand
it flies endlessly towards the far target
i'm asking you to come back to me, to hold onto my hand
no matter how many times i call you, though i endlessly shout for you
there's no response from you

in my memories, no matter how much i struggle to erase your existence
every night, in my dreams,
she appears, wiping away my falling tears
what should i do? say that everything is ok?
lie to myself? i can't take this anymore!

when it hurts, i hurt too. when it's sad, i'm sad too
my frozen heart keeps accusing me
really, it's the end. really, i'm okay.
the tears that i've held in keeps pouring down on me

is there anyone to heal my wound
if i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
i'm really scared of love and people
i'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

is there anyone to heal my wound
if i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
i'm really scared of love and people
i'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

always a loner, i close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, i live like a fool
i close my eyes and cover my ears
i lock myself in the gloomy darkness

One afternoon a wealthy lawyer was riding in his limousine when he saw two men along the roadside eating grass.

Disturbed, he ordered his driver to stop and he got out to investigate.



He asked one man 'Why are you eating grass?'



'We don't have any money for food,' the poor man replied 'We have to eat grass.'



'Well, then, you can come with me to my house and I'll feed you', the lawyer said.



'But sir, I have a wife and two children with me. They are over there, under that tree'.



'Bring them along,' the lawyer replied.



Turning to the other poor man he stated, 'You come with us also.'



The second man, in a pitiful voice then said, 'But sir, I also have a wife and SIX children with me!'



'Bring them all, as well,' the lawyer answered.



They all entered the car, which was no easy task, even for a car as large as the limousine was.



Once underway, one of the poor fellows turned to the lawyer and said, 'Sir, you are too kind. Thank you for taking all of us with you.'



The lawyer replied, 'Glad to do it. You'll really love my place; the grass is almost 1 metre high!'


1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
- Not really.. Above average

2. Smart?
- Yup.. Goot to chat

3. Preferred age?
- Younger.. If older at least 2~1

4. Preferred height?
- Shorter than me

5. How about sense of humor?
- Love it.

6. How about piercings?
- I dont mind

7. Accepts you for who you are?
- YUP.

8. Pink hair?
- LOL.. So cool.

9. Mushy or no?
- Not too Mushy

10. Thin or fat?
- Mild and Raw

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
- Not stated

12. Long hair or short hair?
- Long

13. Plastic or metal?
- Meat

14. Smells good?
- Of course.

15. Smoker?
- I dont mind.. as long dont smoke in front of me

16. Drinker?
- Sure.. I'm a drinker too

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
- The closer the better

18. feminine?
- Feminine on the inside, abit boyish

19. Plays piano?
- Sure.. I would learn too.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
- Cool, we can form a band

21. Plays violin?
- Love it too.

22. Sings very well?
- Of course
23. Vain?
- Not too much..

24. With glasses?
- I dont mind.. Girl with glasses are cute

25. With braces?
- Not too ugly braces

26. Shy type?
- Yup. Fun to tease.. =D

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
- 50 - 50

28. Active or passive?
- Active.. Passive are too boring..

29. Tight or bomb?
- Hot and sexy

30. Singer or dancer?
- Both

31. Stunner?
- @@

32. Hiphop?
- I dont mind.

33. Earrings?
- Wouldn't bother me at all

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-un
til-you-drop?
- WTF is this

35. Dimples?!
- Much cuter.. XD

36. Bookworm?
- Can share interests with me

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
- Anything romantic is ok too

38. Playful?
- To me only.. XD

39. Flirt?
- Only towards me..

40. Poem writer?
- I rather do that.

41. Serious?
- Not too serious..

42. Campus crush?
- Wat campus?

43. Painter?
- I love to draw.. She can paint it.

44. Religious?
- Not Extreme

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
- Mild.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
- I dont mind.. But moderate

47. Speaks 20 languages?
- Ask her to teach me..

48. Loyal or faithful?
- Both!!

49. good kisser?
- Let me teach her..

50. loves children?
- Absolutely

Monday, August 3, 2009

I'm Selfish.. You are selfish.. Both of us are selfish..

It's no use pondering over the past.. Nvr been a thing between us.. U kept me by ur side because u dont want to hurt me..
U wanted me because u were lonely.. And i gave you company..
And u wanted me to be just by ur side.. I knew this all along.. But i've been greedy.. Ignoring the truth.. In the future.. u might keep thinking bout me.. and regretted about this.. OR
U love me because u were made to think. And i took advantage of it..
On the other hand.. u would just remember me as a caring friend.. and live happily..

Should have left me when the feelings was so little.. But i had to leave you with this heavy feeling..
U stay by my side because you dont want to hurt me.. But you deepen it
I will just remember you as someone that i was attracted to on the 1st day of college.. You came in late.. And U sat behind me.. The urge to know u.. and talk to you.. That's all..
I did love you.. But you Did not..
The memories i had.. I leave it behind.. And i will keep looking forward..

I hate you so much..

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