seems... like it's been a long time since i blog...... it's 29 April.... seems almost a year past.... since i first met you.... i fall in loved at first sight i guess....
a girl who was late to class.... her curly hair and white skin really caught my attention...
and that time i thought... i really want to get to know her....
a week pass, i was lucky as i got to sit beside her.... it was funny as the room was really cold.. and her hands kept shaking... she kept warming her hand by rubbing them together and blow it.... i tried borrowing my jacket to her.... but kinda failed.... and on the next day, i saw her on the corridoor, i tried talking to her... and it was pleasant... i got a chance to see her again..... during break, at the library.... i talk to her casually and asked her out on Friday for swimming... it was just a joke, but she really believed it... that time i just got her number, we started to chat alot.... and on thursday, she told me she cant go swim because she dont have any swimwear.... i kinda laugh as it was just a joke, i said instead of swimming let's stay back....
she did stay back with me on friday... hang out together on the 3rd floor vacant spot... can see a nice view from there.... we got closer.... but i felt it wasn't really right.... so i back off from her... i tried avoiding her.... but in the end... i couldn't do it, and got back...
we became something more than friends.... and it continues on and on.... where there was a lot of times where i break her heart.... and i had to mend it desperately......... both of us are always sad...... hurting each another... on the end of october.... i could not hold it together anymore.... i shoved her away.... wishing she can be happy...... i could not give her the happiness anymore...... leaving memories that cant be forgotten, unwanted items that's hard to throw, a hidden letter and a broken heart that can never be mend..........
it's been a while.... but this heart of mine feels really lonely even with everyone with me.... nothing can really replace the time we spent........ but the past is the past..... i already moved on since November..... but there's still a small part of me who misses her............
and i still wonder...... do you still visit this page...... do you still think bout me.... did you throw away the things i gave you.... did u still wear the ring i gave you..............
Thursday, April 29, 2010
wat's love?
