lately... i've been thinking about another problem i had...
it seems... i feel... is it there?
have i lost a good friend?

well.. after what suki told me..."people do move on..."
i said.. yea i know... but it's still sad...
when you had so much fun together... and the gap starts to get wider...
and wider and wider until there is no more chatting...
there's no more going out... so many difference...
i thought... people change so much easily...
even i know i change too...

and i'm stronger than before...
i dont get emo easily as i do last time...
i can stand by my own...
but i still cant get used to the loneliness...
so i always sms or msn people randomly or continously...
that might make me an annoying person right?
since last year february 2009... only one person continously chat with me and tried cheering me up... even though sometimes, i'm busy and i cant reply...
only she always find me... when i dont find her... only she is there when no one's there... there's a large difference with me and her... but i can only treat her as a family... and she know that fact too... because we are real blood family...

i'm mature enough not to cross the boundary... and created a large boundary...
i always remember this when i chat with her...
somebody got angry and jealous over her because i sms with her...
i know i'm wrong for sms-ing her during class but not someone... but... there can never be anything between me and her...

i change topic easily... sadly or happily that's me...
and i just found out today... because of my money, transport problem... one of my friend said i'm not out going enough... i laugh right out of the bat...

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