A picture is worth a thousand words.

2012-01-24T01:33:00.000+08:00

Thinking thinking thinking.

I had so much time to think.

A long period to indulge into myself.

I gaze upon the dark sky.

Listening to the raindrops knocking on my window.

Pondering.

i realize something.

I have reach to the point where i look upon thy.

On the other side of the mirror

Is this who you really are?

Achievements. What did you ever achieve?

Life. Is this the life you want.

Now i know. I don't want to be you.

The time i had.

All to myself.

I want to change.

Someone better than you.

So i turn around. I say goodbye.

To myself.

My old self.

On the journey of soul searching

2012-01-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

sigh.. i really lost my passion for blogging.
i guess its because i told myself last year that i want to change.
into someone who don't rant so much on the internet.
stop depending on people.

and i guess im now partially a psychopath.
sigh.. life is boring.
ain't there anything exciting besides my usually daily routine.

2011-10-26T19:23:00.001+08:00

wishlist?
well.. the top priority that i want right now is

A Hermes Belt

Hermes Belt

A 27 inch LED monitor or 32 inch LCD TV

27 inch LED monitor

32 inch LCD TV

A 2TB internal hard disk

and get a better job

2011-10-11T20:16:00.001+08:00

International suit up day is coming up in 2 days..

owhh.. i love you so much suit..

2011-10-08T14:16:00.000+08:00

On monday, everything for assignment was taken that night and editted on thursday and finalized on friday..
so here we have quite a good assignment video i have

2011-10-07T22:34:00.002+08:00

god.. it hurts..
mixed emotion.... chaos in my mind..
clash of personality and identity.....
annoyance... Please get lost.
shit shit shit shit shit shit..
i wanna go somewhere and SHOUT!!!!

A night out

2011-09-22T18:14:00.000+08:00

A night out.. what did i do? did i have an awesome night?
the pictures says it all

If u don't know what's the green thing.
Its a glowing bottle with glowing liquid.
Good to drink

Cab - BAD

2011-09-22T18:08:00.000+08:00

It feels just like it was yesterday
We were in love
Why's it falling apart
I've never been one to walk away
But I've had enough
And it's breaking my heart

Cause you love me just the way that you should
It's nothing that you do
No it's nothing you say
Yeah baby, I know that you're good
But I don't want a good girl No, not today

Cause I want it bad I want a bad girl, baby, bad
I want a love that's crazy, yeah
I want a bad girl, baby, bad I want it bad

I want a girl who stays out too late
And when I call
She doesn't answer the phone
Oh, I want a girl who likes it her way
And through it all
I know I'll end up alone
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/the_cab/bad.html ]
Yeah yeah, you love me just the way that you should
It's nothing that you do No no, it's nothing you say
Oh pretty baby, I know that you're good
But I don't want a good girl, No not today Mmm

Cause I want it bad I want a bad girl, baby, bad
I want a love that's crazy, yeah
I wanna fight I wanna rock and roll and party all night
Yeah, I want it bad I want a bad girl, baby, bad I want it bad

I'm getting sick of predictable Tired of acting logical
Oh yeah, I gotta shake it up tonight
Yeah girl I want something physical
Not something invisible, oh yeah
I'm tired of being good, let's be bad
I want a bad girl baby, bad
And I want a love that's crazy, yeah

I want a bad girl, baby, bad
I want a love that's crazy, yeah I wanna fight
I wanna rock and roll and party all night
Yeah, I want it bad I want a bad girl, baby, bad
I want a love that's crazy, yeah
I wanna fight I wanna rock and roll and party all night
Yeah, I want it bad

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/the_cab/#share

A song that i'm into right now... Somewhere, i want someone like this..

2011-09-13T05:38:00.004+08:00

Last night was a fucked up day.

i dunno what to say right now.

Somthing that wasn't suppose to be there. Just happen to be there.

For the first time since i was 15, It started to beat.

My heart.

Pasta

2011-08-29T18:49:00.001+08:00

Seafood and Basil Leaf Vermicelli

Olive oil fried pork Vermicelli

Mixed herb and Cheese Elbows

time of that month.

2011-08-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Memoirs of Taylors Degree

2011-07-25T20:14:00.003+08:00

I know everyone will miss this the most.

Going into degree.. But i'm walking a different path from majority of my friends. Some left the road to chase after the dreams. but forever, we were together, a part of Foundation In Mass Communication June 2010. ♥

Some people change and died in our memory. Some people are going somewhere far away for their Degree. Most people are attending UniSA and the minority went for the Taylors Degree, and im one of them.

Thinking back of the times in Foundation. There were a lot of stuff happening. Where Jon hated me during sem 1. We had Subway the most when it just open. Free parking. We had a hot teacher in Sem 2. Gerald Poo dancing while imagining himself grinding Jared ass. 3 dudes dancing to "blue's song". Amelia dress as a hot teacher. Sem 3 Vishnu and his car get bashed up. And Vishnu couldn't drive manual. Everyone made terrific videos. Sheila and Jared group made very emotional video. Please upload it to Youtube!

And many many more memories.. But they are one part of our life. They shapes us. We grow up and remember them in the future. Very precious memories. Vishnu still can't drive manual.

2011-07-25T02:18:00.001+08:00

no idea what to write here..
suddenly there's so much things going through my head.
i guess i post something here as a diary post.

i really miss you.. i also miss you as well. as well as you. i miss u all.
but what i miss other than my best friends. is the feeling of..................

too bad there's none left in me.
i ....... somebody so much that i lost it again.
Don't really see the point in ...... someone.
But...... I love 91. I love mom. I love lesbo.
i guess this is how i can express how important they are to me.

One who always goes missing for awhile. Sometime so warmth and sometime cold. 91, a red in my life.
One who is always there for. Somebody i trust with all my life. She's my colour, blue colour.
One who's trying to be me. The awesome one. Somebody who would accompany shopping and chilling. somebody who makes me crazy and fun to be with. My yellow colour.
I have grey too.. Someone who's suppose to be dead few million years ago but still alive til now.
andd.. what colour are half japanese and chinese? oh well.

sigh.. need to sleep and then wake up at 5...

i miss you so much. so FUCK THIS!

零
Where it begins as well as where it ends.

One of my love ones Special Day

2011-07-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

So this girl who was born on 20 June became the happiest girl on earth.. Why? Here goes..

She met me.

Some Kid blocking my handsome face

Fark u back KM.. LOL

Took pictures with the Manager and Head Chef

Okay okay... So i brought her out for lunch... Which was unexpectedly very expensive... Rm400... WTF
But that's worth it, because she is special.

Cute girl and very cute boy.

sexy people in here

So my devilish plot came to torture this girl like hell.. Because she make a fuss about no one want to celebrate her birthday. So i made everyone she knew and i knew to write their wishes to her in a very small paper.
Asked Kah Mun, the awesome one to fetch her out so i could sneak in her house and place the papers.
It's suppose to cover her whole bed, kinda sad knowing little of her friends.

She came in the room and stood there for quite a long time.. Looking at me, looking at the bed, then me, then the bed.. A shock to her life.

Sexay pose.

YES GURLL, Slowly read and arrange..... MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

So girl.. Is your birthday this year the most memorable that you wanted?

Loves ya that much yo!
and you too kah mun...

Nothing Else Matters

2011-06-17T04:25:00.000+08:00

You resembles a thorny rose
If I had been aware of its thorn
maybe I wouldn't have plucked it

But now that I've already picked it up
And breathed its fragrance
Letting go of this rose would rend my heart
with pain worse than a wound oozing fresh blood
from my hand

No matter who you are, I don't care
I believe the you right now is the true you
Just like the me right now who is really am
Nothing else matters

2011-06-16T03:03:00.001+08:00

2011-06-06T19:06:00.000+08:00

Howard Goh Starring in Ladda Land

2011-06-01T15:48:00.001+08:00

Never make somebody your everything, cause when they're gone you've got nothing.

Sunflower

2011-05-26T23:48:00.000+08:00

A sunflower will always gaze towards the sun with neither hate nor regret.

Even through strong winds and heavy rains, it will continue to look up with a smile.

Patiently bearing the pain, while waiting for the sun to shine once again.

But the sunflower has never felt, nor will ever feel any regret.

My heart resembles the sunflower.

My Two Fair Ladies

2011-05-08T21:57:00.001+08:00

Maserati & Playboy!!

2011-05-04T21:32:00.002+08:00

2011-05-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

Awww... still keeping such an old message from me. Im touch.. happy 3 years eh.. XD

2011-05-02T23:53:00.002+08:00

Sometimes places holds thousands thoughts and memories..

A sea of lights.

2011-04-17T23:02:00.000+08:00

A Sea of lights.

My original picture

take your time to look up

2011-04-14T15:13:00.000+08:00

V2

2011-04-04T21:29:00.001+08:00

Picture might look the same but there's a 5 minute interval between them.

2011-04-03T22:24:00.002+08:00

Picture might look the same but there's a 5 minute interval between them.

2011-03-27T11:40:00.002+08:00

2011-02-24T00:03:00.001+08:00

2011-02-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

How i miss my old times... i was such a manipulator...
Reminds me of the few times of my past.. awesome.

2011-02-15T01:52:00.001+08:00

listen to my heartbeat. it's beating for you..
wow the songs really remind me of my past me.. LOL

Happy Single day?

2011-02-15T01:46:00.001+08:00

Well. another year of valentine day of being single!

i don't see the special thing about valentine day because When you are in a relationship, Everyday is Valentine day. haha.

and well, i always break up during november. such a sad month for me yeah. feel me?

it is so much better living without a heart. (-;

and.. sigh. i don't want any relationship or anything.

might be a lie or might not be.

but i want to say. not directed to anyone.

maybe or maybe not.

i can't give you my love. if you want to love me than just leave it be.

i don't really play facebook, online chat or sms.

if i do then i am at that time bored.

and to somebody.
maybe or maybe not.
i din't want to celebrate valentine.
and i was tired for the day for going out looking for a computer.

2pm - heartbeat

2011-02-15T01:37:00.000+08:00

Can you feel my heartbeat!

Heart beat heart beat
Niga jitbarpgo tteonan simjangi
Ajikdo ttwigo isseo geugeotdo neoreul hyanghae

[Taecyeon] Ijeuryeogo amuri noryeokhaebwado
Saeroun saramdeureul amuri mannabwado
Gyesok dasi tto dasi doraseomyeon wae nisaenggangman naneunji
Anhallae geumanhallae amuri naejasineul
Dallaego tto dallaebwado amu soyongieobseo
Nae simjangi gojangna beoryeosseo wae

[Chansung] Wae ajikdo nan ireon babogateun jiseul haneunji
Meoriron algenneunde gaseumeun wae jimamdaeronji
Neoreul japgo nochireul motae
Jigeumdo niga naui gyeote inneun geot gatae
Geureul mitjimotae

[Wooyoung] Nugu mannado maeum sok han goseun yeolji motago
Gyesok nijaril biwona

[Junho] Olliga eomneunde oljido moreundago
Wae mitneunji gaseumi wae mareul andeutni

[Junsu] Listen to my Heartbeat (Taec: It's beating for you)
Listen to my Heartbeat (Taec: It's waiting for you)
Kkeutnatdaneun geol ajikdo molla
Wae ireoneunji ihaega anga
[Wooyoung] Listen to my Heartbeat (Taec: It's beating for you)
Listen to my Heartbeat (Taec: It's waiting for you)
Neoui saenggage ajikdo apa
Gaseumi ttwil ttaemada saenggangna

[Nickhun] Ijeoyahae ijeoya salsuisseo
Jiwo beoryeoyamanhae an geureomyeon naega jugeo
Stop trying to get her back she ain't coming
She's gone gotta keep moving on
Gasseo ojianha geunyeoneun nisaenggak haji anha

[Junho] Geunyeoneun naega gidarineungeol
Jeonhyeo moreunchae jal salgo isseo
Geunyeoneun imi nal ijeosseo wanjeonhi jiwosseo
Wae nan geureoke motani

[Junsu] Listen to my Heartbeat (It's beating for you)
Listen to my Heartbeat (It's waiting for you)
Kkeutnatdaneungeol ajikdo molla
[Wooyoung] Listen to my Heartbeat (It's beating for you)
Listen to my Heartbeat (It's waiting for you)
Neoui saenggage ajikdo apa
Gaseumi ttwil ttaemada saenggangna

Tae Yang - I need a girl

2011-02-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

I'm tired of being alone
Sick of being single
I think I need a girl
I need a girl like

Saenggak eopneun maltu
Eorein aedeul malgu
Nal gamssa.ana jul
Shim shim handdae gaggeum
Noneun yeoja malgu naman saranghaejul
Gamanisseodo namjanomdeul
Jeonhwagil naemiljiman
Jarangseureopgae nae sajineul
Kkeonaebo Ineun georeun girl

Girl, I need a girl
Mweolhaedo eeppeun
Mommaedo eeppeun
Girl, I need a girl
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me, too

Chimaboda chungbajiga deo jal eo.oolineun geureon yeoja
Kimchi bokkeumbapeun naega jal mandeul eo
Daeshin jal meogeul su itneun yeoja
Na.I.ga manado eoryeobo.I.neun yeoja
Nan geureon yeojaga jodeora
(Know what I mean)

Bukkeureo.oon cheok hamyeonseodo
Dangdol halju aneun girl
Pyungso.aen joshinhan cheokhaedo gatchi isseumyeon
Hmm, y'all know what I'm talking about

Girl, I need a girl
Mweolhaedo eeppeun
Mom.maedo eeppeun
Girl, I need a girl
Nan eereon yeojaga jodeora

Waemoneun not issue but meoseul aneun gwiyeo.oon girl
Chwimineun dallado chwihyangeun gatae
Younghwana eumakeul bol ddaemyeon mali tonghaneun girl

(Yes! ) I love girls, girls I do adore
Sarangdeul apaesun jijo.itgae nolayo
Nae apaesun aing nan mollayo

Achimae nal kkae.ooneun moksori
(Morning Kiss) Harureul shijak.hagoshipeo(I want it all)
Bamaeneun ni mureupae gidae
Jajanggareul deuleumyeo ni kkoom kkugoshipeo

Dashi nae gaseumeul ddwigae haejweo
Dashi dalkomhan norael mandeulgae hajweo

You know don't need no more
Danji geureongae anya nae mameul jugo shipeun saram

Girl, I need a girl
Girl like you, gotta make you're mine
I'm treat you right, baby

Girl, I need a girl
Mweolhaedo eeppeun
Mommaedo eeppeun
Girl, I need a girl
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me, too

Girl, I need a girl
Girl, I need a girl

Girl, nae maleul deudgo itni
Baby, I need you
Girl, you need me, too

Girl, I need a girl

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/tae_yang/#share

Rainy day.

2011-01-30T18:19:00.000+08:00

I'm such a rainy person. Not because a lot people say i'm a look alike to bi(rain).
But i love the rain so much..
i love the part where sitting under the shelter waiting for the world to stop. A puddle of water slowly increases.
A chilly breeze touches your warm cheek and a nice hot drink with you. Don't have a drink? A company is there too.
Another part is staying at home or someone's home and relax at their home until the rain go away. But even after the rain, you just feel so relax and want to sleep.

Looking at the rainy sky.. So much tranquillity.

2011-01-30T17:28:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is the last day of exam and i'm going to have 2 month break!! YEAH!!
But for a week or a month, i'm going to be at Sabah to take care of my aunt.
So see everyone after my trip!!

2011-01-20T01:24:00.002+08:00

Blood flowing down.

2011-01-09T20:36:00.000+08:00

On December, I planned to go for a trip to Ipoh. Accompanied by my friends, Yin Ping, Fion, Kah Mun and Aiden. We went there for Ipoh Dim Sum, the first choice place was on its off day so we went to Foh San that is just next door. My family said this Dim Sum from here wasn't very tasty and the price was expensive but to me it is just alright. The special thing about this place is everyone have to Self-Service to get the food.

The Sisters

The Couples

After the Dim Sum Session, we drove to Yin Ping's aunt to visit her. Fortunately and Thankfully, her uncle suggested that he want to bring us around the good place to eat. Yahoo!

So he brought us to Ong Kee(Tauge Ayam)

The Restoran Onn Kee

The nearby establishment

The Ong Kee's Soy Sauce

The Ong Kee's Hor Fun

The Ong Kee's Steamed Chicken

The Ong Kee's Tauge

My Favourite.
The Ong Kee's Super Cool Attendant

The attendant from the restaurant really made my day superb! He was like some Rambo guy, when he repeats our order. He goes "Okay! 5 Bowl Hor Fun! 1 Tauge! 1 Whole Chicken! Okay! Do you want anything else like THIS THIS THAT THAT OR THAT! WOW!

He made me stare at him like dumb founded person. The way he talks is like he is giving a very important speech! Full of enthusiasm and power.

And finally we went back home and bought some extra stuff

Add caption

Eminem - 25 to life

2011-01-09T20:05:00.002+08:00

Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase, 25 to life
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase, 25 to life

Too late
(I can't keep chasing 'em)
(Taking my life away)
Caught in a chase, 25 to life

I don't think she understands the sacrifices that I made
Maybe if this bitch had acted right, I would've stayed
But I've already wasted over half of my life
I would've laid down and died for you, I no longer cry for you

No more pain, bitch, you took me for granted
Took my heart and ran it straight into the planet
Into the dirt, I can no longer stand it
Now my respect I demand it
I'ma take control of this relationship, command it
And I'ma be the boss of you now, goddammit

And what I mean is that I will no longer let you control me
So you better hear me out, this much you owe me
I gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you, while I stayed
Thankful all the way, this is how I fucking get repaid?

Look at how I dress, fucking baggy sweats, go to work a mess
Always in a rush to get back to you, I ain't heard you yet
Not even once say you appreciate me, I deserve respect
I've done my best to give you nothing less than perfectness

And I know that if I end this I'll no longer have nothing left
But you keep treating me like a staircase, it's time to fucking step
And I won't be coming back so don't hold your fucking breath
You know what you've done, no need to go in depth
I told you, you'd be sorry if I fucking left, I'd laugh while you wept

How's it feel now? Yeah, funny ain't it, you neglected me
Did me a favor although my spirit free you've said
But a special place for you in my heart I have kept
It's unfortunate but it's

Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase, 25 to life
Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase, 25 to life

I feel like when I bend over backwards for you, all you do is laugh
'Cause that ain't good enough, you expect me to fold myself in half
'Til I snap, don't think I'm loyal, all I do is rap
I cannot moonlight on the side, I have no life outside of that

Don't I give you enough of my time, you don't think so, do you?
Jealous when I spend time with the girls
Why I'm married to you still, man, I don't know
But tonight I'm serving you with papers, I'm divorcing you
Go marry someone else and make 'em famous

And take away their freedom like you did to me
Treat 'em like you don't need 'em and they ain't worthy of you
Feed 'em the same shit you made me eat
I'm moving on forget you, oh, now I'm special
How I felt special when I was with you

All I ever felt was this, helplessness
Imprisoned by a selfish bitch, chew me up and spit me out
I fell for this so many times, it's ridiculous
And still I stick with this, I'm sick of this
But in my sickness and addiction, you're addictive as they get

Evil as they come, vindictive as they make 'em
My friends keep asking me why I can't just walk away from
I'm addicted to the pain, the stress, the drama
I'm drawn in, so I guess, I'ma mess, cursed and blessed
But this time I'ma ain't changing my mind, I'm climbing out this abyss

You screaming as I walk out that I'll be missed
But when you spoke of people who meant the most to you
You left me off your list
Fuck you hip hop, I'm leaving you
My life sentence is served, bitch, and it's just

Too late for the other side
Caught in a chase, 25 to life
Too late for the other side
Caught in a change, 25 to life

Too late
Caught in a chase, 25 to life

Life is Great

2011-01-07T00:05:00.000+08:00

Life is Great!

Life is great! *loves* everything is so awesome!

why is it not so great eh? I feel so happy now. Though i lost something, it can be found again or replaced in no time! Wish me luck.
My life is fully pack with greatness, I have few hot chicks to accompany me. I have friends that are retards. I having fun tomorrow and especially everyday. I'm going to enjoy Sisha session tomorrow night.
I do not have any plans for next week, but I'm sure It is going to be fully pack again.

Single and Available. Is it great? =D

Alone

2011-01-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

i will walk alone as i always have been. Because no matter what, no one will truly be there.
We enter the world alone, we leave it alone.

The Gazette - Pledge

2011-01-04T20:00:00.001+08:00

Kizu tsuketa ato tashika
Kizukenakatta koto
Ayamachi no kazu kimi wo motome
Mitsume aeta hazu sa

Chīsana uso ga
Hibi wo umeteita
Utagai wo kawasu yōu ni
Ushinau imi wo kokoro ga shiru
Tachitsukusu nidome no fuyu

Kimi wa mienai asu ni tomadoi
Koe wo age, naiteita ne
Kotoba wo sagasu koto mo dekizu ni
Ochiru namida wo hirotta

Sabishisa ni tsutsumarete
Hibi wa tada wo nurashi
Hikari wo motomeai kurikaeshita
Mata fukaku omoeru

Koe wo kanjite no wa uso janai
Ah, tashika ni kimi no tonari de

Aishiteru nandemo iranai
Tada zutto, soba ni ite to
Koe wo tarashi naiteita kimi ni
Kowarete yukitai

Saisho de saigo no kotoba wa kimi e sono ude wo (hanasanai yo)
Kata wo narabete onaji yume ga futari wo saru

Chīsana uso ga katachi wo kaete
Shiroi yuki ni toketeyuku
Ushinau imi wo wasurenu you ni
Nando mo mune ni kizamu yo

Sayonara wa koko ni oite arukidasou
Mou nido to miushinau koto wa nai

Futari ai wo tashikameau you ni
Kanashimi wo mitekita kara
Ashita futari kiete shimatte mo
Mou nakanai utai yo

Itsuka sugisaru kisetsu no you ni
Kawariyuku futari ga ite
Kanashimi ni tachidomaru yoru ga kite mo
Wasurenaide, owaru koto wa nai
Futari yume no naka...

SkyBar Outing

2011-01-03T16:07:00.001+08:00

After work from Wangsa Walk Mall, Ampang on saturday, i went to fetch Stefanie and meet up with Howard Goh and Li Shan. The parking place that i always park suddenly raise price, when i say last time i always pay rm3, they say it has been rm5 since the beginning. (If you want to lie, its better to use a much more smarter answer!)
My hair was looking really bad after the work.

Don't mind my hair

LiShan and Stefanie

We had our lunch/Dinner at Some Sushi place where i forgotten the name right now. After the eating session, we continue our day by walking around Pavillion. Then we decided to have fun at SKYBAR!

Christmas Tree, seen this many many times already.

The swimming pool at Skybar. (Love)

LOL

The Drinks we ordered that day

Me and Stef

Stefanie and me ordered Mammoth Loooooooooooooooong Island and i promise to pay for her drink next time. ^^ Then howard ordered a non-alcoholic drink while LiShan ordered something i forgotten the name. And we end the night by hanging out at PappaRich!

2011 New Year Resolution!!

2011-01-01T17:49:00.001+08:00

1. Get nice body figure
2. Continue Drumming Lessons
3. Learn More Guitar
4. Look more better
5. Get a better girl
6. Good Results for Foundation's Examination
7. Get rid of this beer tummy
8. Know more People
9. More Shoe Collections
10. More Watch Collections
11. More RayBan shades Collections
12. More Clothes Collections
13. High Income
14. Being Cheap
15. New phone
16. New Computer
17. Keep in touch with everyone
18. Be more mature
19. Be more gentleman
20 Be more cool looking

2011-01-01T01:43:00.000+08:00

i wish there is that time again...
where i can tell somebody that im lonely when im feeling lonely.
i want somebody to comfort me when im sad.
i want to wake up in the morning reading sms to know that im not alone.
i want to have someone who miss me everyday.
i want to do silly things that i don't have to be embarras showing to tht special person.
i want to share lots of secret with someone...

I'm lonely.

2010-12-26T22:16:00.000+08:00

this happened quite a while ago... didn't have time to post it up...

so i was really bored at home and i have nobody to talk to that time... luckily Howard called me up and ask me if i was free to go out and accompany him for lunch. he, his girlfriend and me went to restaurant 2020 to eat good food... Li Shan kept saying the food was orgasmic!

after restaurant 2020, we went to herbal tea shop and order lots of herbal drinks.. so awesome!! haha!!

then Howard asked is it alright for me to follow him around to take care of his dog.. and i said"i have nothing else to do lar bro"

and so we went to his house, pick up his dog and went to a pet shop.

TIME TO CHECK OUT SOME PETS!!!!

At howard's house

In his car

some dog in pet shop

awww.. my 1st favourite dog... future pet!!

the evil angry face

my 2nd favourite! but my most favourite.. XD

HUSKY!!!!!

candid shot by Li Shan

so that's all i did that day.

2010-12-22T11:00:00.000+08:00

i'm wasting time again in INTRO TO IT class again... Like why should i waste time learning how to blog when i'm a freaking amature blogger with 500++ traffic per month...

i seriously get damn piss off when i'm learning something boring and something i already learn and being good at it. I dont like wasting time that does not give me any profit to it. I'm wasting 2 hours of my freaking life over something stupid.

wish list

2010-12-12T04:26:00.002+08:00

i wish she would talk to me again...

Another day outing with Jiun Jin

2010-12-12T04:21:00.001+08:00

So i'm from college driving back after my class... and i saw this lotus on the road TeeHee!!

Lotus

On friday, this jiun jin ask me out since last week bcuz he want to buy laptop that he would use during his studies at UK.. i feel sad because he is going to go to UK for studies... leaving me all alone... if i emo again how la bro! LOL...

So we went to Times Square and have at there... He also wanna buy Baby Milo T-shirt, so i'm obligated to do so since i promise him to accompany him... After reaching, parking and came up from basement. I saw few cars being displayed at the front...

So we went walking few floors up and down looking for his T-shirt and something else... He found the T-shirt that he wanted and i saw a pink shirt and remembered i have an event to go on 18th and bought it... After that we walk around looking for food and we ended up at Wendy's... The burger was awesome! Quite filling.. =D

Wendy's Burger

The pink shirt i bought.. Cute Right?

My love, Madoka.

2010-12-12T01:27:00.000+08:00

This morning i was having such a great dream... I dreamt of her again... I saw her, apologize to her.... and she came back to me...
That was the happiest moment of my life...

I guess my heart is telling me.. "I still love her alot. I want her back no matter what. Even if it hurts or even if i have to go to the end of the earth just to get her back. I miss her so badly."

She is the one that i love the most. She is the only girl i truly and is madly in love with.
And i made a decision without a confused heart.. I want to wait for her.

2010-12-10T19:16:00.001+08:00

The day was a wednesday... went to class in the morning.. after the morning class i went for breakfast with my college group.. bought this choco banana crisp from Hot & Roll, seriously not good at all...

After my class, i went out and fetch Yin Ping and Fion and we parked at Chulan Square.. I forgot that she is wearing high heels, so she had to walk sexily to the gate.. =D

Yin Ping Posing for the Cameraman

Christmas Tree

Yin Ping keeps smiling around

After meeting with Kah Mun, Darren, and Yip Siong. We decided to go for Brunch first because me, Yin Ping and Fion is hungry. After walking around, i suggested Pepper Lunch. hehe and i regret a little because it is quite expensive.

Darren Ho and his Gayness

Fion slurping her drinks.. Obviously very bored.

Ek eleh! This person is already reserved. Added with middle finger also.

Playing her favourite blue camera.

So i ordered Curry pepper lunch set and chose ice cream for the additional serving.. Before the waitress can finish her sentence, i said Macha right away.

MACHA!!!

So this is my Curry Pepper lunch.. Looks very yummy right? the taste also very yummy.
Everyone ordered except Kah Mun and Darren. They said they are not hungry.. LOL

Fion ordered Pork or chicken set. i'm not really sure...

And lastly Yip Siong ordered Spaghetti set.

After the Brunch, Yip Siong intro us to mlm. So of course i was never interested in this.. I look damn bored and Fion kept playing iPhone. When i was looking damn bored and was watching Fion playing her game, Kah Mun saw my Epic boredom face and laugh. The lady introducting the mlm said 'Kah Mun i know it sounds funny now but in the future its not........" forgot the rest of it. I was soo damn bored that my emoness is gone.

Yin Ping Aiming to kick if i emo more.

Darren bought cream puff for us for free! Yum Yum!

After pepper lunch, we walk around and decide to go for Snowflakes because Kah Mun kept saying she wanted to eat it. And we enjoy ourself chatting around.

Candid shot by YP

Acting cute to annoy darren. haha.

Snowflake Best Seller requested by YP

Soya Bean something requested by KM

Sadly this pearl tea that is ordered by Fion was not finish by her. Because she say it sucks bad.. Ended up Kah Mun enjoy drinking all of it.

Pearl tea requested by Fion

The proof Kah Mun drank all of it

After finishing all the Snowflake, we chat and camwhore around.

Sorry for my bad camera skill.. So sad, dunno how use her camera.

YP with Moustache

Do Re Mi... =D

Mummy Mummy! Big Tree!!!

CamWhoring session

Kah Mun face is so Epic!

I think i like this pic the most.. Take by me. =D
Yin Ping looks so hot right??

Let's all look at Darren when he is checking out guys.

So sorry to Yin Ping and Fion because i could not fetch you back. i thought i was late for my best friend, Sho Suzuki's Performace but in the end i was not late at all.
Suzuki called me the day before to invite me for his performance. I thought he was singing and playing guitar at the same time. Ended up he sing with
Before his performance, everyone was quite hungry. Wilson, Louis, Sean, Shawn, Howard, Li Shan and Edwin was there.
i could not take picture of my food because everyone wants me to eat fast.

I ordered Spaghetti with Tomato Chicken Sauce

And Here are Great Pictures of Suzuki Performance. Credits to Nicholas Chin

Thanks to everyone that keeps accompany me when i'm very down. Thanks to Kah Mun and Yin Ping that decided to un-emonize me.

elliott yamin - wait for you

2010-12-10T17:00:00.000+08:00

This song really sing out my heart... It resembles what i think all the time...

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing
You would come back through my door, ooh
Why did you have to go? You could've let me know
So now I'm all alone

Girl, you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand, ooh
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby, I will wait for you
'Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me?)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away, everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back?
Girl, I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
No, why can't you look at me? You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying

Baby, why can't we just, just start over again?
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough

So baby, I will wait for you
'Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby, I will wait for you
Baby, I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

Baby, I will wait for you
'Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you

I'll be waiting

2010-12-09T17:01:00.001+08:00

once again... my heart falls deeply in darkness and sadness again...

i kept being strong and strong.. trying my best not to call her, sms her or msg her...

im still doing my best... i feel even if i find her again, im sure she wont be happy that im intruding into her happy life now...

so i will try best to endure this pain...

i guess im stupid for thinking we are still friends... but im me, frens are frens no matter wat... even if she dont want to be frens anymore...

2010-12-08T19:33:00.001+08:00

When i'm sad... many people are sad too.. not for me, but because my blog is way too emotional and my facebook kept talking about her...
In the end, two beautiful girls find me to go out to talk to me and accompany me so i would not be sad again..
pictures will be uploaded later..

Because i'm going out again for my best Friend Performance..
Good Luck to Sho Suzuki..

Intro to IT? LOL

2010-12-08T10:27:00.002+08:00

i'm wasting my life learning how to blog in my new class : intro to IT...

Like OMG... I'm learning how to google:
webmasters
computer support specialist
technical writer
software engineer
network administrator
system analyst
programmer...

*facepalm*
So sad case..
will post some pics later...

barry manilow - cant smile without you

2010-12-07T00:25:00.001+08:00

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

A new day, a new me.

2010-12-06T17:59:00.003+08:00

Today i woke up in the morning.. feeling really refresh.. for few seconds, i stop feeling the pain in my chest.. but it was just for a moment..

i took a long bath and decide to head out... and then i saw the sky...

"Ah yes... The morning today looks so beautiful... The sky is so red"

After coming back from college, i lay on bed lazily and kept playing with the computer... And when i decided to take a bath, i look at the mirror...

i thought "wow, i really look old around my 20's and i look a little like a professional" and i decided to camwhore...

I kept thinking about being a doctor or something, so i look for my A-level robe and wear it again.. I really want to be a doctor long time ago....

I kept on thinking about the past... My current college friends keeps saying that i read too much article... I guess when i was with a girl last year during my A-level, i read a lot of things... She reads more things than me and always tells me about it... Hehe, my common knowledge is quite vast...

so i think i'm gonna make another post later..

2010-12-06T17:51:00.003+08:00

hmm.. so what am i gonna blog about today?

so i made my decision to stop being sad...

it's her decision to stop being friends... so i'm not going to beg her to forgive me anymore...

Because she is just like me... i'm very stubborn, i dont like being caged up and i want somebody who understands me alot.

I was just like her once, i always study a lot and always aim to be the best...

but when i reach form 4, i realized.. "i'm not going to go through secondary life anymore in my life, it's once in my life... I became lazy and focus on being active in Uniform unit, sports, and friends while courting girls along my way.

I excel greatly in Uniform unit, got silver medalist in sports and i have lots of close girl friends and a few guy friends.

Erm, i think i got lost in remembering the past.. so yeah... i decide to leave her alone...

Because she wants me to leave her alone. if she is happy. i'm happy.

Sekai wa happy de dekiteru

2010-12-06T16:13:00.001+08:00

i wish that my life is always full of happiness...

so tml im going to enjoy going to the KL road shows with my bros and take lots of pictures...

2010-12-06T01:18:00.003+08:00

When everything became clear...

i feel very regret for one thing i've done...

i was so blinded by myself, i was full of selfishness that i only cared about myself.

Why am i so so so stupid... Fuck you jian!

when she failed her paper, i should have kept on accompanying her... why did i chose to let her study and left her alone...

why did i become so emotional that she couldn't accompany me...

i should have just accompany her until she feel better...

i should have been there for her...

and when she should be sad over her papers... and being busy in her exam..

i was only looking at myself.. being selfish, i kept thinking she should accompany me and stuff...

and i told her to break up... i added more sadness to her...

i really suck bad... why am i so stupid... arghh...

if i have the second chance with her, i would really fix it... apologize to her.. be there for her... give her more happiness...

but its too late now...

all i can do is correcting myself so i would not do the same mistake again in my future relationship...

2010-12-05T00:36:00.010+08:00

i loved her so much....

i remember the times... when she msg me in the morning... i would reply to it and fall asleep.. and reply and fall asleep until it reaches one pm.. hehe, that was life...

the time when i try to kiss her.. i blow into her mouth and she got little annoyed.. but she was sooo cute.. haha

the time when i hug her soo tight, scared of losing her... we hugged for 10 mins.. and she end up tickling me.. lol. baka, always bully me...

oh yeah, there was a time, i try to kiss her.. then that lil devil keep evading me.. i hug her tighter and tighter, but i still couldn't get her lips.. frustrated..

and the time we watch eminem movie.. haha, we kept playing around...

the time we first hold hands was in my car.. lol lol.. and she told me she love holding my hands compare to kissing and hugging...

heh.. there was a one time she bully me.. it reminded me of the past.. i just kept silence and cried behind her back... in the end she found out.. ;P

a time where i got mad at her because she dint tell me her secret, and also breaking her promise to tell me..

that time was the depressing moment.. i thought she wanna leave me, because of the facebook status.. i fly all the way to her house.. to say sorry... but tht time i dint bring my other phone.. i kept sms and sms and sms.. she dint reply.. end up she replied the other phone....

i went to college, buy her flowers and say im sorry... hehe.. waiting for her for an hour with my mind clouded with misery.. lol lol...

no one will do this for her none other than me... being able to be patience for half a day and beg her for forgiveness when im suppose to be angry at her...

and then.. when she was very busy preparing for exam.. i dont want her to be to stress so i went back home, made ginseng + chrysanthemum tea for her to drink.. hehe, so loving boy friend right? worry so much for his girlfriend without caring himself.. lol, cuz i myself also having exam, summore aa really important one... when i give her, i told her its a love potion.. well cuz i made it with lots of love right?

another time i try to surprise her.. i made alot of love letter and put it into her book in every pages.. it kinda took me half a day... it was hard making soo many lines.. and i wanted it to be special...

and then last time she keep saying she miss me alot.. and she dont like being away from me.. so i find my favourite clothes and give it to her.. she always wear jacket, so i thought, why not give her my beloved jacket.. hehe.. and she used to sleep with it every night..

every night i would wait for her to come back from tuition like a loyal little puppy... hehe...

one time she dint realize she was jealous.. LOL! she said she was annoyed that i posted something here about a girl and me talking to someone.. and she keep saying, im not jealous..

another time was when i stay back at her place and keep playing with a cat... hehe

after that i was planning to buy her a little cute kitten.. im sure she would have named it nogichan.. lol...

and then another time she told me she met this guy from sri garden at pavillion.. i gotten very jealous.. i dint tell her.. lolz.. of course i will be jealous, accompany him when dint accompany me..

then another time i was jealous again cuz she wanna go find her ex because he never come school. summore go into his house... of course when loving sumone sure will jealous.. but i dint tell her i was jealous.. :P summore to add, she told me about another guy.. i felt bit stupid cuz i said to tell me anything.. bt its okay.. cuz i loved her very much..

and one time i was wearing her headband everywhere.. like serious, people looking at me.. sure they think im weird or gay.. lol, then when walking with her, i show her, then she scold me..

cuz its bad for my hand when the band is tight around my wrist.. lolz.. soo caring.. hehe, thank you.. ^^

and the last time i saw her... she was soo cute.. haha... we were both planning to celebrate after her exam... to go genting together for fun.. LOL.. but the best part is when she say she wanna spendd time with me during Christmas and new year.. she ask me when is christmas and eve, i said friday and sat.. she fuss around and kept cursing.. and then ask me bout new year.. lolz.. too bad end up on friday.. then she said.. FML laa.. FML...

then i hug her tight.. i said its okay. we can try celebrate on week days..

i planned to get a lil kitten for her christmas present.. hehe.. :P

i was also planning what to get for her birthday present that is coming on 21 january...

i was planning my super top secret plan for valentine...

i also planned to give her ang pao for CNY.. LOL

but my plannings dint come true because the next week... we broke up...

everything was so happy and enjoying.. suddenly it just ends like that..

such a happy couple ends up being strangers... being normal friends.. is just too hard because i'm the bad one who choose not to..

its my fault when she was having exam, i kept disturbing her.

its my fault.. seriously.. why was i so blind, she failed her exam, but i dint care at all.. kept fussing bout talking with me...

its my fault to when i kept chainning her to me.. i made her feel like she's a bird trap in a bird cage...

actually im the bad person here.. it was never her fault...

i'm the jerk...

and i left her all alone...

i would like to say...
hontoni arigatou for loving me...
hontonii arigatou for all the happy times...
bokuwa hontoni shiawase...
hontoni gomehnasai for hurting you...
and lastly goodbye...
Sayonara...
if we can meet again in the future... let's try..

2010-12-04T23:20:00.002+08:00

my chest still hurts badly...

i dont know why it still hurts so bad....

i cant remeber her face anymore...

i cant remember many things.. the sad times and the happy times...

slowly and surely, i would forget...

i dont want to forget her........

i'm all alone... i'm still holding this last thing she gave me...

a pokka dotted hairband....

i guess she would be happy that i leave her alone and forget her...

=(

2010-12-04T20:18:00.001+08:00

I feel like this song really reflects what i'm going through...

Nelly - Just A dream

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back (uh)
down that road (road)
Will she come back? (Uh)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream.

I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement
Number 1 spot, Now she find her a replacement
I swear now I can't take it
Knowing somebody's got my baby

Now you ain't around, baby I can't think
I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring
Cuz I can still feel it in the air
See her pretty face, run my fingers through her hair

My love of my life, My shawty, my wife
She left me, Im tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back (Uh)
Down that road (Yeah)
Will she come back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream.

When I be ridin
man I swear I see your face at every turn
trying to get my usher on but I can't let it burn
And I just hope that she notice she the only one I yearn for
No more will I be missing, will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love
I guess now I got my payback
Now im in the club thinking all about my baby
HEY, she was so easy to love
But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough
I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone
Now I'm wishing she would pick up the phone
But she made a decision that she wanted to move on
Cause I was wrong.

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back (Uh)
Down that road (road)
Will she come back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream...

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything
X2

I was thinking about her
Thinking bout me
Thinkin bout us (us)
What we gunna be?
Open my eyes, (Yeah)
it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back (Uh)
Down that road (road)
Will she come back? (back)
No one knows
I realize (Yeah)
It was only just a dream...
X2

far east movement - rocketeer

2010-12-04T20:15:00.001+08:00

Here we go, come with me
There's a world out there that we should see
Take my hand, close your eyes
With you right here, I'm a rocketeer

Let's fly
Up, up here we go
Up, up here we go
Let's fly
Up, up here we go, go
Where we stop nobody knows, knows

Where we go we don't need roads, roads
Where we stop nobody knows, knows
To the stars if you really want it
Got, got a jetpack with your name on it
Above the clouds in the atmosphere, phere
Just say the words and we outta here, outta here
Hold my hand if you feeling scared, scared
We flying up, up outta here

Here we go, come with me
There's a world out there that we should see
Take my hand, close your eyes
With you right here, I'm a rocketeer,

Let's fly
Up, up here we go, go
Let's fly
Up, up here we go, go, here we go
Where we stop nobody knows, knows

Baby, we can stay fly like a G6
Shop the streets of Tokyo, get you fly kicks

Girl you always on my mind, got my head up in the sky
And I'm never looking down feeling priceless, yeah
Where we at, only few have known
Go on the next level, Super Mario
I hope this works out, Cardio
Til' then let's fly, Geronimo

Here we go, come with me
There's a world out there that we should see
Take my hand, close your eyes
With you right here, I'm a rocketeer

Nah, I never been in space before
But I never seen a face like yours
You make me feel like I could touch the planets
You want the moon, girl watch me grab it
See I never seen the stars this close
You got me stuck off the way you glow
I'm like, oh, oh, oh, oh
I'm like, oh, oh, oh, oh

Here we go, come with me
There's a world out there that we should see
Take my hand, close your eyes
With you right here, I'm a rocketeer

Let's fly
Up, up here we go, go
Let's fly
Up, up here we go, go
Where we stop nobody knows, knows, knows

2010-12-04T18:17:00.000+08:00

Today i met a beautiful fairy and i kept talking about everything.

i feel so much better... ^^

2010-12-04T10:42:00.001+08:00

my mind and my dreams have always been haunted by this word...

"so just leave me alone"

it felt like my heart been stab a million times....

2010-12-04T10:41:00.001+08:00

so cold... everyday has already become very cold for me..

my heart has lost its warm to keep me hot....

i lost my sun... i miss her warmth soo much....

2010-12-04T10:35:00.002+08:00

i miss her so bad.. i wish i could be there with her again...

i would sell my soul just to be together again....... that is how desperate i am...

but i would not, because i'm sure she wont be happy if i kept her.........

i really love her soo much... and i feel nobody can ever replace her.....

i dont want anybody that is not her....

i dont want this world that is without her...

I'm so so so so lonely...

I still love her soo much....

i don't know what to do anymore........................... :'(

Jam tape

2010-12-04T10:31:00.003+08:00

in my mind. its like a tape kept jamming.

i always think of her hugging me tight... i miss her warmth soo much...

i always think of her looking at me after hugging... i miss her silly smile sooooo much...............

i always think of us trying to kiss, and she dont let me..... i misssss alllll the fun we had.......

i really miss her sooo much....

i can't hold her small hands anymore... i can't feel her warmth anymore.....

i can't seee her anymore....................... it feels so bad.. :'(

does she miss me? T.T

2010-12-04T10:27:00.004+08:00

i kept wishing and wishing and wishing... that she could be mine again.......

but dreams are just dreams...

i miss her too badly... i need her too badly..... its so hard to let go....

it hurts so bad when thinking, she doesn't miss me, she doesn't need me, or have she forgotten me already? it just hurts so bad...

but i was really happy with her... i did my best giving all my love to her... i did try....... :'(

is she happy? T.T

Happiness

2010-12-04T10:23:00.002+08:00

everyday and night... i always think the same think over again and again..

how is she... is she happy? is she much happier compare to the time with me......

its really my fault for ruining her life... i made her too sad....

i kept thinking this on and on... i kept wishing she would be happy...

and also wishing she would at least come back to me....

The happiness i had was her.... i wish my happiness could be mine again...

it is so depressing losing her.....

But i wish for her happiness...

2010-12-04T00:35:00.003+08:00

i already lost you once.. i dont want to lose you another time.

Losing a girlfriend is already bad enough. Losing a friend that i care is just.....

too sad...

i dont hate you. i forgive you. i wish there's a way to be there.

so i choose to be friends. it's very very hard for me to let you go.

if you are reading this.

i dont want a world that doesn't have you in it.

even i cant have you. i would just want us to be friends.

I miss her. I love her. I'm forgetting her.

2010-12-01T21:18:00.006+08:00

I forgive her because i love her. I wish for her happiness because i love her. I'm letting her go because i simply love her.

Bruno Mars Grenade

2010-11-27T17:57:00.003+08:00

[Verse 1]
Easy come, easy go,
That's just how you live, oh,
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give.
Should've known you was trouble
From the first kiss,
Had your eyes wide open.
Why were they open?

[Bridge]
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash,
You tossed it in the trash, you did.
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, 'cause
What you don't understand is

[Chorus]
I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh, I would go through all of this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain!
Yes, I would die for ya, baby,
But you won't do the same.

No, no no

[Verse 2]
Black, black, black and blue, beat me 'til I'm numb,
Tell the devil I said "hey" when you get back to where you're from.
Mad woman, bad woman, that's just what you are,
Yeah, you'll smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

[Bridge]
Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash,
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did.

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/grenade-lyrics-bruno-mars.html ]

To give me all your love is all I ever asked, 'cause
What you don't understand is

[Chorus]
I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh, I would go through all of this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain!
Yes, I would die for ya, baby,
But you won't do the same.

[Verse 3]
If my body was on fire,
Ooh, you'd watch me burn down in flames.
You said you loved me, you're a liar, 'cause you never, ever, EVER did, baby!
But, darling

[Chorus]
I'd still catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh, I would go through all of this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain!
Yes, I would die for ya, baby,
But you won't do the same.

[Outro]
No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Ooh, you'd never do the same
Ohh, no no no

I'm broken...

2010-11-25T18:50:00.002+08:00

flapping my charcoal black wings... trying to reach up to the skies... but no matter how much i flap... i kept falling... slowly descending into this realm of darkness once again...

I just need a hand to pull me up.. but i could not catch hold of any to pull me up...
This darkness enveloping me once again... this familiar coldness is creeping up to my spine.. unable to do anything... i lost my warmth... i lost my sun...

i'm too prideful to ask for any help around me... i end up with this broken wings... i gave fallen from grace... God... all i ever ask was to be happy, but i'm so blind!!
I have so many type of happiness but there's one that i could never have... please.... i want it soo bad...

when i lost it.. it is the only time i realise that i was never patient... i was too demanding... i not good at all.. i'm broken....

Talcita Ultio... a word to describe me completely....

A Great Experience at Zing, millenium hotel.

2010-11-22T13:33:00.009+08:00

On the 16th of november, i went to a very unique restaurent at the millenium hotel. At Zing.

The restaurant theme is very traditional chinese. The interior, the table, the chair, the cutlery are fit to the theme of a chinese restaurant.

So we are here waiting for everyone to arrive. while waiting we are serve Chinese tea. There is nothing much to explain about the tea because its just Chinese tea.
The cutlery here looks very dynastic. I love the chopstick the most! There is gold plated looking object on the top tip of the chopstick.

Here are the plate, cup of tea and spoon.

When everyone have already arrive, the chef arrives. Taking reference from the brochure, Chef Chan Kwok, Group Master Chef from Orchard Hotel, Singapore's Popular Hua Ting Restaurant.

His Dishes are renowned for unique creativity with new dishes done in traditional Cantonese-style cooking.

And here's another picture of the Chopstick again. *loves*
The first dish that is served is the Crispy roasted duck accompanied with grilled fresh scallop skewer and chilled cucumber and black fungus marinated with fruits vinegar.

I would like to make a recommendatory to the duck lovers out there because the duck here doesn't have that rusty taste to it. It is also very juicy and soft. The scallop have a special taste to it with its sauce and a little roasted taste added to it. If there are people who loves to eat something unique, the chilled cucumber and black fungus is recommended.

And for soup, we have the double boiled baby superior shark's bone cartilage. The special quality that attracted my utmost attention would be the bone cartilage that is in the soup. It is not hard at all, its very soft and chewy. The soup has a very smoothing and soft scent to the tongue. It is really a soup that can give you a enjoying and relaxing night.

The next menu we are having is the Pan Fried fillet of kurobuta pork. Kurobuta means black pig. I was amazed that the chef is able to prepare a dish by using a Japanese product and yeah, IT WAS GREAT!

When is say pork chop, what do people think of? Chewy like chewing gum, dry and hard. or maybe girls? But this Fried fillet really blast your mind people. It is as soft and juicy as a chicken chop. When you just put a small slice in your mouth, you are absolutely caught by its taste and tenderness that you just want more. The side dish accompanies well with the pork. This is the Main Dish of my week. =D

We have the Braised home made bean curd emerald bean curd with seasonal greens topped with pan fried fresh scallop. The first impression you get from this dish would be WOW! Something that is very unique and can't be found in a lot of restaurant. Its soft, juicy and a little crispy on the top.

And now we have Stewed noodle. The speciality of this dish is that it is very hard to be prepare because it uses two type of mee. If the mee stewed too long, it would stick to the pan and the difficulty is increase with another mee that takes longer time to be cooked compare to the other mee.

Lastly, our dessert is Chilled fresh fruit with aloe vera and hawthorn berries jelly. The slight lemony taste is added to bring its supreme joy to your taste buds.

Sadly to say, this dishes are only available from 15th - 21st November 2010. But the Zing restaurant is really a great place to visit.

I had exam to attend during that period that causes me not to have time to post this up. And things to be done during the weekend.

Black Eyed Peas: The Time

2010-11-17T23:46:00.002+08:00

Now I've had the time of my life
No I never felt like this before
Yes, I swear it's the truth
And I owe it all to you
'Cause I've had the time of my life
And I owe it all to you...
I've been waiting for so long.
Now I've finally found someone
To stand by me.

We saw the writing on the wall
As we felt this magical fantasy.
Now with passion in our eyes
There's no way we could disguise it secretly

So we take each others hand
'Cause we seem to understand The urgency
just remember
You're the one thing I can't get enough of
So I'll tell you something
This could be love
because...

I've had the time of my life
No I never felt this way before
Yes,
I swear its the truth
And I owe it all to you.
With my body and soul
I want you more than you'll ever know
So we'll just let it go

Don't be afraid to loose control.
Yes I know what's on your mind

When you say "Stay with me tonight.
"Just remember:You're the one thing
I can't get enough of
So I'll tell you something
This could be love,
because...

I've had the time of my life
No I never felt this way before
Yes, I swear its the truth
And I owe it all to you.
'Cause I had the time of my life
And I've searched through every open door
Till I've found the truth
And I owe it all to you

Now I've had the time of my life
No I never felt this way before
Yes,
I swear its the truth
And I owe it all to you

I've had the time of my life
No I never felt this way before
Yes,
I swear its the truth
And I owe it all to you
Cause I've had the time of my life
And I've searched through every open door
Till I've found...

You, my beloved baby girl...

I love you, i miss you.. im longing for you...

2010-11-13T15:16:00.001+08:00

exam this week... nothing much to blg...

but i think im going to redecorate my whole blog to be up to normal standard again...

so be back next week to check my new blog layout!!

A Truly Bali Experience at Prince Hotel

2010-11-09T20:15:00.023+08:00

On the 8th of november, i truly enjoy the taste that is brought from Bali at Prince Hotel. Even the interior design of the restaurant gives off a feeling that you are in Bali. Here are some personal views that i like.

Over here is a very special recipe of making a chicken. The chef stated that the chicken is wrap in banana leaves together with spices and seasoning. There is also spices under the skin of the chicken to preserve the moisture of the meat especially the breast.

And onwards to different unique food that are displayed.

After taking a lot of picture, its time to take a rest. The service here is quite good and special. The waiter ask me for what drink i would like, so i said Pineapple. After drinking finish, the waiter would come and ask if i would like a refill and unexpectedly he remembers what i ordered.

*THUMBS UP!*

Now here is the bonus in this restaurant. There are desserts that are from western country.

Our local Fruits are also on serving.

Very delicious looking cakes.

As well the chocolate section, full of chocolate.. =D

And also a combination of both western and Asian. The Raw Section that serves you Raw Food, obviously.

Not to mention there is a plates of vegetable cuisine.

The most attractive things here is that the Japanese food is arranged very beautifully.

After looking at every food that is prepared. I guess everyone is very hungry. So the opening presentation is that the chef prepares a very hard to make cuisine from Bali.

The ingredient is Corn, Coconut flakes and Coconut Milk

The procedure here is that the Coconut flakes and corn is mix together with hand.

after that, each person MUST take a spoon and takes as much as possible of the corn mix. Puts the coconut milk also as much as possible and eats it together. Yummy. I guess the hard part here is holding the mike while preparing and also having a must to taste it together.

Now here is my 1st dish that i take from the counters.

There is seafood. Seriously TASTING GOOD, when you bite it, it is very soft. Especially the prawn.

Capati is also served among the Bali Cuisine. @@

My Favourite, the chicken that is wrap in Banana Leaves. The chicken is amazingly very soft and tender. When you eat it together with the spices, WOOOW!

And here is the variety of Meats. Every meat i put in my mouth, melts like ice. It is so soft and tender..

And here is my second dish.

A salmon strip. The Salmon is cook to its perfect as it is very soft too. i have no idea but every meat i taste is good because its soft and tender. @@

The crab meat that is fried, its very crispy and chewy.

Mash Potato, not a everyday you can eat because the gravy and fillings is something very unique.

Some Tenderloin Strip, sadly its chewy~ Not soft.

Wow fish, i hate fish so much because there are a lot people that doesn't know how prepare it. Including buying NOT FRESH FISH! making the fish awfully stenchful. So its very rare for me to take fish or order it unless i know the Chef and Manager.

BUT up to my trust and expectation, there's nothing wrong with the fish. ^^

Soft and Crispy is all i have to say.

I don't really remember what this is because the name card displayed was mixed up. But the taste was really unique and GREAT!

3rd dish would be the satay, its very much different from our local satay.

4th dish would be the japanese cuisine. Erm, very normal. Since i always eat Japanese cuisine.

Dessert Time!!

The cake here is GREAT. Including the Pie, Tiramisu, Chocolate cake and Cheese Cake. WOOTS Damn nice!

Even a Beautiful Girl wants to have a taste.. NOO~~

2010-11-06T10:30:00.003+08:00

My mind is clouded and shrouded. I'm worrying too much and thinking too much...
I really wish I just throw away my heart, empty it until there is darkness lying there because I do not want to feel this pain in my heart... I do not want to control, force or manipulate her...
The sadness is so unbearable and I have to grasp my chest hard so it would hurt my skin and bleed to ignore the pain in my chest... But to me, she is much more important... I wish for her happiness and her freedom over mine... Because she is much more important than I am... I', sacrificing myself, my heart, my happiness just for her...

Just to see her sweet smile...
Because I Love Her So Much...

:')

I have but one heart O Marenariello

2010-10-02T16:24:00.001+08:00

I have but one heart, this heart I bring you,

I have but one heart to share with you,

I have but one dream that I can cling to,

You are the one dream I pray comes true.

My darling, until I saw you, I never felt this way,

And nobody else before you, ever has heard me say,

You are my one love, my life I live for you,

I have but one heart to give to you.

*Dicimo o mari, facimu l'amore,

*A curi a curi che ci passa,

*Ca u mare parla e na' carezza,

*Ma a tia la brezza, fina murir.

You are my one love, my love I live for you,

I have but one heart to give to you.

Just For my Baby Girl...
Madoka Mitsui...

2010-08-30T23:06:00.004+08:00

Last week... i went to coco's place to cook... so we made spaghetti and vegetable...

Chocolate

2010-08-25T22:10:00.005+08:00

Hey peeps... I just got my Sony Ericsson Vivaz Pro. The down part of this dream phone of mine is the camera is 5MP compared to the Vivaz classic... The Vivaz Classic was my 1st option before the pro came... I tested the camera quality and it really rock the house. Unfortunately, The Vivaz Pro don't really give a really good quality under low lights...

But that wasn't the main topic i want to talk about today...
My girl just came back from Japan.. I was really lonely for that one week... And look what's the outcome for being patient.. I GOT CHOCOLATE!!! Chocolate craze people...

I'm Loving It... Thank you love, really like the gift.. XD

Gentleman or not?

2010-08-24T17:14:00.002+08:00

Opening a door for a lady.. It's real manners and a way to show your a gentleman...
But not all people in malaysia practices it... Only when guys wants something from the girl, only they pretends to be gentleman... Some wants to court them, some wants to be very "yeng", some just wanna have a one night stand...

But hey, there's some that are pure hearted... i've met some of them before, the good and bad...

Well, i've been training to be a gentleman for years... It's a very enjoyable experience... I really enjoy being a gentleman and give respect to woman who should deserve it...

But! I only show it to my close friends... I guess it's embarrassing to open a door for some stranger... I do open the door once in a while, politely and coldly...
I really hate some people who are so full of them self...

i experience before opening a door for someone just a way of manners out of pure intention... But that person spread rumours that i like her and want to court... That's so bullshit...

So yeah, now i don't care... when i have a chance, i will take it no matter what people think... Because i want to be myself, A Gentleman... Though i scold foul words... But to me, it's not foul words... I think it's really childish, thinking foul words are forbidden or something bad... but i will respect people and hold my mouth...

So people... Open a door for somebody, no matter if that person is male or female... It really give you a fun feeling to it... =D

My Past : Illegal Racing

2010-08-23T21:59:00.004+08:00

where to start... after i went home from coco's house... i was driving slowly, then there was few cars that cut me from the back by going to the left lane and front of me...

I thought, that driving style was so like me in the past... I never wasted time tailgating the person in front to make him move to the left, or flashing them... i just accelerate to the left and cut him... My driving was really fast, really dangerous to other people and even to myself...

The time where i went up to genting highland, i wanted to try reach the top in 10 minutes... and well it ended up with this...

I bang lots on time but this is the second time i got into a crash during the drive... i drive fast, but i never crash alot... all my accident was due to stupid malaysian road, gostan while not paying attention..
mostly that...

In class today, the teacher talk about, obsession of winning... all the negative points i thought of was related to my driving...
I was too obsessed in winning, obsessed in driving fast... too obsessed in speeding... I wanted to keep breaking my own record...
The best i timed myself was:
Pandan indah to taman cannaught - 07 mins
Pandan indah to Leisure mall - 05 mins
Pandan Indah to Kuala lumpur - 10 mins
Pandan indah to Sunway - 15 mins

I guess not much people can really get this kind of timing.. It was my pride... and i kept putting myself into risk...
Fcuking Loke was the one who scold me like crap bout my driving...
and i slowed down a little...
For me, 160 is normal for me on normal roads... but to others is OMGWTFBBQ..

And now, i'm learning "Dummy Guides to be Wilson Teoh". Gotta love this book, it teaches you how to drive mild, being safem putting people to sleep, and enjoy your driving...

So.. my status from dangerous racer have gone to Safe mild driver... ^^

Tacita Ultio

2010-08-17T23:43:00.003+08:00

Hello everybody, it's been a long time since i wrote a story... there's still 5 titles in the archive that i haven't gotten start on yet...
As usual, i only write stories when i have the mood...

This story is my 1st assignment to be passed on 18 August.
It's based on something i really idolize. The wolf.
The story is way too simple. The quality of the story was too low due to the restraints of words.

So here's a comeback story. The title is Tacita Ultio, Silent Revenge in Latin.

The night grew colder and darker. My body is still bleeding due to the wound that those filthy creatures inflicted upon me. I can still hear multiple footsteps, flashes of torches can be seen, and dogs barking. My legs are getting numb due to the heavy snow piled up. My vision is getting blur, I’m getting too tired to move around.

Luckily I was able to hide myself in the cave nearby. My heavy breathing echoed in the cave. Suddenly, there was a large bark coming from the entrance of the cave. I was afraid of getting caught. I limp to the side of the boulder, hoping to be unspotted. As the creature creep closer, my heart started to beat faster. I pulled all my courage to stand and get ready to pounce onto the creature. The air was getting colder, my breathing slowed down. All of a sudden, there was a loud shout from the entrance. Another creature was calling out to the vile creature besides me in an unknown language. It left.

A moment passes by slow, I lick the wound carefully. Even though the pain was unbearable, it will not change my mind set. I will take advantage of the silent night to get my revenge on that creature. I said to myself, “tacita ultio”. The despicable creature had killed my wife, my child, and my friends. I’m left all alone in this forest. The paradise I once knew became my last hunting ground for revenge.

As quietly as possible I ran out into the woods, following the direction of the lights and also the scent of the creature. My heart was filled with only pain. “What have we done to deserve this?” I ask God. We had never crossed the boundary, to the place where the trees had been chopped down. We only hunt when we need to feed. We have always been minding our own business. The creature we allowed to live alongside had misused the kindness we given. They were weak at first, slowly they grew in number. They reproduce like rats. Now their kind outnumbered us. It was a mistake to let them live.

The scent of that creature became stronger and stronger. There were few torches that can be seen moving around. The torches were moving and seen together in pair. They kept shouting to each another. As expected, they were treating this as a game. They were making too much noise and were too noticeable. I crept slowly towards the direction of the scent. The creature is now a few steps away from me.

My eyes glared at the creature, my claws ready and my fangs steadied at it. My hatred towards it was boiling. I leapt towards it with all my might, biting the neck until it snap. The creature’s blood was gushing continuously, and the creature went limp. When I realise I was blinded by the blood, it was too late. “Bang!” the shot went through my heart. The creature’s companion shouted, “No, Thomas. Don’t die.”

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Maximum: 500

09.08.2010

2010-08-10T19:20:00.005+08:00

i had a car crash not so too long ago... (AGAIN)

and i started to learn my best friend's style of driving...

this Aunty was tailgating me for awhile already.. from the LDP into the kesas road(not sure, it's the penang bridge)... this aunty was driving a proton saga

I needed to turn right to get onto the overhead... So this aunty behind me turn to the right 1st and she was behind me and i have been signaling right since the beginning... i have the experience of how space i got between the right behind car and mine... since i always over cut people...

I turn right, just right after this aunty turn right... She kept honking me... "like what is your problem aunty? i put signal, you din't... i tried to let you go 1st, but you did not accelerate, you want to make me bang the divider is it?"

i ignore that noise pollution and kept a steady speed... this aunty went to the left lane trying to cut me.. thanks to this brother motorcyclist in front of me, she couldn't cut in...

All went well, all ends well... she almost crash into the divider and went to the wrong road... and she happily kept spamming her honk...

so people

to the person in front...

2010-08-10T18:34:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE...

I guess I'm back to blogging again...

it's been sooo long since i blog...

i had nothing interesting to blog about... such sad case yo...

My traffic rank have drop soooo much...

from 200,000 placing, i have drop to 5 million placing.. god damn it...

let's make a head start...

I'M STARTING COLLEGE AGAIN!!!

and luckily i ain't the oldest..

so people been wondering... "where the hell this bastard when off to?"

I drop out from college... started working at sungei wang and because of this, i had no time to blog at all...

after 3 months, i quit that job because :-

i) the accountant is so incompetant, she can't give me a correct salary

ii) my manager is a fucking useless son of a bitch bastard... all he does is bark rubbish, can't understand what i trying to make him understand, play facebook all day, and brag that he knows a lot of stuff...

iii ) two new employee scammed my money

i started working at my mom's place being a billing accountant, accountant and moving things around...

And at last... started my college...

that's all i have done till now...

I'm going to start playing with my SLR, Nikon MF-14... it's an antique...

updates on picture will be slow, since i have to wash it, and scan the picture...

2010-06-02T15:22:00.002+08:00

After such a long time not blogging.... This few days i was sick due to my irregular sleeping habit... I guess i used to blog about myself everyday or few days in a week... now i lost that spirit...

It's a good thing and a bad thing i guess... i used to blog about how am i, how i feel... Hoping someone will understand me... Hoping someone would read it and care bout it... Hoping someone to know i'm feeling that way... But that's human nature, even now it's almost the same thing... *laughs*

For 3 months, i was working at a phone shop at sungai wang... I met a lot of people i knew... Including Mr. Kenny Goh... and now i lost his number... haih.... I quit my job mostly of a small trauma... I got rob by 2 damn malay, one of them holding a parang about 3m long... That time i was "stun" rather than being petrified.... mostly i was still so naive... The motor was coming at my direction while swaying... i though it was gonna fall.... and the back passenger fall off the motor but only then realise he did not fall, he got off... damn it... *face palm*

I lost my motorola V3x, china samsung and Nokia 5800... Omg i miss that phone... It had so many games.... *sigh*

Well, that's over... Wasn't really sad about it... Lucky i'm in piece because i din't had any penny on me that time... *Grins* Lately i had money problem... I need to get a job... But i am darn lazy to get one... Then suddenly i get my commission.. happiness finally comes... Hardwork paid off(not really worth it though)...

And i was thinking of one thing i wanted to write but never got a chance...

Having 3 Best Friend that will always screw you up is the best thing...

I read this passage before....

*After a failed robbery, a friend will run away, while your in prison... A best friend will say "Damn we are fucked up"... I guess for them, i will be saying "damn them for selling me off for a hundred"...

wat's love?

2010-04-29T02:55:00.002+08:00

seems... like it's been a long time since i blog...... it's 29 April.... seems almost a year past.... since i first met you.... i fall in loved at first sight i guess....
a girl who was late to class.... her curly hair and white skin really caught my attention...
and that time i thought... i really want to get to know her....

a week pass, i was lucky as i got to sit beside her.... it was funny as the room was really cold.. and her hands kept shaking... she kept warming her hand by rubbing them together and blow it.... i tried borrowing my jacket to her.... but kinda failed.... and on the next day, i saw her on the corridoor, i tried talking to her... and it was pleasant... i got a chance to see her again..... during break, at the library.... i talk to her casually and asked her out on Friday for swimming... it was just a joke, but she really believed it... that time i just got her number, we started to chat alot.... and on thursday, she told me she cant go swim because she dont have any swimwear.... i kinda laugh as it was just a joke, i said instead of swimming let's stay back....

she did stay back with me on friday... hang out together on the 3rd floor vacant spot... can see a nice view from there.... we got closer.... but i felt it wasn't really right.... so i back off from her... i tried avoiding her.... but in the end... i couldn't do it, and got back...

we became something more than friends.... and it continues on and on.... where there was a lot of times where i break her heart.... and i had to mend it desperately......... both of us are always sad...... hurting each another... on the end of october.... i could not hold it together anymore.... i shoved her away.... wishing she can be happy...... i could not give her the happiness anymore...... leaving memories that cant be forgotten, unwanted items that's hard to throw, a hidden letter and a broken heart that can never be mend..........

it's been a while.... but this heart of mine feels really lonely even with everyone with me.... nothing can really replace the time we spent........ but the past is the past..... i already moved on since November..... but there's still a small part of me who misses her............
and i still wonder...... do you still visit this page...... do you still think bout me.... did you throw away the things i gave you.... did u still wear the ring i gave you..............

2010-04-01T01:18:00.001+08:00

2010-02-21T02:42:00.003+08:00

i lost one of my beloved hobby... a part time job and hobby to me...
thanks to few people...
thank you very much...

300++ views per week drop to 70+- view per week...
FML

2010-02-21T02:22:00.003+08:00

lately... i've been thinking about another problem i had...
it seems... i feel... is it there?
have i lost a good friend?

well.. after what suki told me..."people do move on..."
i said.. yea i know... but it's still sad...
when you had so much fun together... and the gap starts to get wider...
and wider and wider until there is no more chatting...
there's no more going out... so many difference...
i thought... people change so much easily...
even i know i change too...

and i'm stronger than before...
i dont get emo easily as i do last time...
i can stand by my own...
but i still cant get used to the loneliness...
so i always sms or msn people randomly or continously...
that might make me an annoying person right?
since last year february 2009... only one person continously chat with me and tried cheering me up... even though sometimes, i'm busy and i cant reply...
only she always find me... when i dont find her... only she is there when no one's there... there's a large difference with me and her... but i can only treat her as a family... and she know that fact too... because we are real blood family...

i'm mature enough not to cross the boundary... and created a large boundary...
i always remember this when i chat with her...
somebody got angry and jealous over her because i sms with her...
i know i'm wrong for sms-ing her during class but not someone... but... there can never be anything between me and her...

i change topic easily... sadly or happily that's me...
and i just found out today... because of my money, transport problem... one of my friend said i'm not out going enough... i laugh right out of the bat...